Thursday, November 15, 2007, 09:04 AM PST [General]
don't know where it came from.. but i feel like i've been hit by a freight train! wrote this poem at a low moment last night... not sure what's going on... has anyone heard of suffering from an emotional flu??? cause that's how i feel! i am sure the feeling will leave me soon enough, this kinda stuff never sticks to long with me!
the spiral
the spiral begins
years of strength disappear in a flash
which way to go
stuck in the spiral
no way out
confusion, loss, pain,
hate, pity, loneliness
the pain is unbearable
sucked back into the trap
i loose myself
and this song is sooooo perfect for how i am feeling right now. it's unwell by matchbox 20.
Unwell lyrics All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown And I don't know why
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public Dodging glances on the train And I know, I know they've all been talking about me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me Out of all the hours thinking Somehow I've lost my mind
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me Yeah, they're taking me away
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be How I used to be Well, I'm just a little unwell How I used to be How I used to be I'm just a little unwell
i'll be fine... just need to to some meditation or take a walk or hit someone.. oh i like that one!! lets see.... who needs a spanking!! lol! see i'm coming back! ok.. pit of despair here i come!
ok... so it is time for the lightening round!! whoever can guess what these two poems are about will win fabulous prizes!!! so get your buzzers in hand!!! ready ok...
poem 1:
together, in a different world they meet
lives take shape as they stay the same
guilt and pleasure become one
as the need for more takes over
a delicate dance of apperence is played
when judging eyes begin to stare
living in a world of pain
the images somehow blur
when they unite.
poem 2:
the beat goes on
sounds and emotions swirl around you
as the sweat begins to come
the movement so fluid
so sweet is the melody
the energy rises and falls
a rythmic chant is heard
in unison to your heartbeat
so afraid to loose the feeling
you dance on until the pulse slows
as the gentle rhythm brings you back
to that explosion of sound once again.
good luck contestants! :D
oh and i just saw across the universe!! OMG!! as a beatles fan i LOVED it!!!! and as a movie goer... i LOVED it!!!! and as a chick {who doesn't normally like chick flickish movies} i LOVED it!!! go see it if you haven't already!! good movie... no, great movie!!!!!!!!
so here i sit at 11am... feeling like a bad daughter/friend/groomer.... i have had much difficulty lately finding time for me. i have more friends then i have had in a long time and more clients then i have had in a long time! and i feel like everyone wants a piece of me right NOW!! i am beginning to have the sensation that i am being pulled in every which way! however, i feel VERY guilty asking for, let alone demanding time for me! i have neglected my house and my animals.. and well, me! now, i know that you are all saying "ha! see!! careful what you wish for!!" {only because i have been whining about being lonely lately} but that is a different kind of loneliness! well to put it in a way that i am comfortable with... that is a void that only a dude can fill! if you can catch my drift!! lol!! damn i think i am blushing!! :D
so the reason that i feel bad is because i am about to call my mom and tell her that i won't come over today.. and yesterday i had to cancel going to a friends jewelry party cause i wanted to spend time with my niece.... i so want to be there for everyone, but i haven't had a day to myself and my animals in a LONGGGGGG time! well.. looks like i am going to just have to get over it and take care of me! k- i feel a bit better now! not a whole bunch better.. but better!!!
and i mean really... could you say no to this face!!
have a wonderfully relaxing weekend!! i think i shall go and reconnect with mother earth!!! **skips off to get obie's leash and take him for a much needed walk**
i finally had some time to write!! and man was it fun!!!! i am considering changing the last line.. we shall see! so what do you think this poem is about?? i will award 5 stars to whomever can figure it out!! :D
