i had a thought while reading lisa's latest blog... a lot of us are financially strapped right now... so lets do something about it!! i think we all should do the same spell on the same night! like i don't know.. lets say.. THE FULL MOON!!! wouldn't it be awesome knowing that your fellow witches are doing the same spell with you?! i think it could be fun! :D perhaps either merle or i or anyone else could make a little spell. :) we could post it and then go for it! something simple but effective. i think it would be awesome!! so who's with me?!!??

remember, life is beauty annndd:

i've been really drawn to this song lately. i love the chorus... *love will lead us..* so true and so beautiful!

hope you all have a beautiful day! full of love, happiness, and beauty! ~&hearts~ alysia

hi guys! so on monday i went for  a walk. i took my time. i let my mind go and i just looked at the world around me. i was at peace... there are 3 different cats that are sometimes out when i walk. it was like they knew i was at peace cause they were out and mewing for me to pet them. :) a thought flew into my brain like a gust of wind... *i choose beauty*. i looked around and saw every leaf on every tree. i saw the unmeasurable beauty of a sun set. i felt deeply the love and peace of the earth and all her creatures... i thought, how many people go on walks to maintain health, or just cause they should take their dogs out. they never stop and look at the sun as he goes down. or even see the moon as she winks down on you from a perfect dusky sky... what a boring walk that must be!! i decided that in my life i must see beauty to enjoy my time on this earth. weather it's the beauty of the world around me {and believe me i can find it in just about anything}, or my big love~ the beauty of music. i know that in life we are smacked with so many horrible images, stresses, or painful sounds and memories... but why can't we choose beauty instead of all of that other garbage? why not choose to see the beauty of life instead of the suffering and pain? why not enjoy the heat of the sun instead of saying that damn it's so hot out! i can't wait for fall?! why not live in the now and choose to see *and feel* the profound beauty of the world at large!? i know that i tend to see life through the eyes of a poet. i sit and think about how i can put into words the amazing beauty that i have just witnessed... some may not see things that way. they may be way more visual and would be thinking of how great a photo of that would be. but either way, choose beauty. :) this little trick was really put to the test yesterday... we, all in all, had an amazing day. my cousin walked, for the first time in 6 weeks! what a gift and what a truly magical experience that was. i have decided to not share the video that i took until he is ready for people to see it. i'm sorry guys. :( if it was up to me i would would be showing everyone i know!! i am like a mom who has her lil boy's first bike ride on tape! lol! i am so proud of him! but it is his life and his journey. it is not my decision. so i am very sorry, but i realized that it was in his best interest to wait for his ok. :) so my mom, aunt, and i got there really early and spoke with his mom for a while before we were able to see him. she told us that he may have a staff {sp?} infection and that he may have to be put back into the hospital for 2 weeks! he is in the barracks now. also he has a 4 day weekend that he was looking forward to. he was going to go out and see friends and go to a wedding. but now that all my not happen. so needless to say, he was really sad. but the he got to walk and he was much more happy! :) it was truly amazing. they put his legs on and he stood. they normally put a p.t. band on his waist to help him but he was totally fine! he just stood up. he didn't waver at all! then they told him how to walk and what to do. he only had a few times where his foot would catch, but he ever fell or tripped. and then at one point they said go faster. so he did and he let go of the parallel bars and just walked for about 2 steps! it was amazing! he walked with such pride and strength. it was extremely inspiring! :) then we took him out to the hard rock cafe for lunch. we had a great time! then as we were walking back to the car, i was pushing his wheel chair... i hit a bump......... he fell........ it was the most painful thing that i have ever seen a person go through. people stopped to help get him back in the chair and then we parked him for a min to let him gather himself. his arm is still pretty messed up so he only has one totally good arm. so he had to just roll when he fell. luckily, he was wearing a brace on his longer leg and he fell onto that. but his butt is still very sore and he rolled onto that. :( i felt so bad, so guilty, so upset. we then got him back to the barracks and we then went back to the place for him to walk again. i guess they had another foot put on so they wanted him to try it. he was ready to go. didn't seem to be upset or in extreme pain. he told the docs what happened. and they said "oh, you had your first fall huh?" it was a non event to them. they didn't ask if he needed to lay down. never said maybe we should x-ray you. nothin! they spoke of it as something that just happens. and that he was very luck to have had that brace on. so i felt like a pile of crap the rest of the day. i apologized profusely. and he always said that it was ok. and then i remembered my thought... i choose beauty. i decided to not let this ruin a truly beautiful day. i would not allow myself to replay it and figure out what i did wrong or what i could've done different. {other then for lesson purposes, then let it go!!} i know that justin doesn't want me to feel bad and he doesn't hate me for it. it could've been anyone. my sister helped me to see so much of this. and i feel so much better. so i choose to see the beauty of that day. i am so lucky to have been there to see my cousin walk. i don't choose to forget or ignore what happened. i acknowledge it. i see it as a lesson. i now know to be much more careful when pushing a wheelchair. i know this won't be the first or the last time i will be pushing one. i also learned a lot about myself and where my mind goes in these situations. i see this as a big learning experience. and i know that justin is ok. so i choose to see the beauty. :) it was a superb day. one day, hopefully, you guys will be able to see how amazing that boy is!

so today, choose beauty. choose to see your world and all it's profound beauty! :) i hope you all have a wonderful day! off i go to work!! (((hugs)))~ alysia

alright i promised some pix and videos, so here you go. let's see how photobucket can handle my goodies!

**note, if you are looking to only read this blog, you are crazy!!! sudden fits of confusion and anger will spew from you like pea soup from that famous little possessed girl we all know and love. so please, for you own safety and your families sanity.. please read my last post first! besides, it's a a great story!!! ;) **

we shall start with some funny videos of audrey at justin's place. please, whatever you do, don't tell my sis these are on here! she'll kill me!! ha!!! she now says bye-bye, woof {leave it to my niece!}, and dog. so we were trying to get her to say one of the above. i got her to kinda say it in this first one:

 

isn't she to cute!!??! and here she is answering a question. :) ~>~>~>~>~>~>~>

 

and here is a mountain lion from the zoo. she kept making this cute lil noise. i caught it on tape! i was very excited!!! :)

 

 

 

 

now onto zoo photos:

so i am soo very excited cause i was able to reschedule my dogs tomorrow and so i get to go see justin walk!! yay!!!!! i am going to bring my camera. videos and pix will be taken for sure. :) so today for the first time in a long time i have a slow day. i am just sitting here watching the olympics and checking in on you all. :) i am feeling good!! hope you all were able to have a great day today too. time for somemore r'n'r. aaahhhh.. it feels soo good! hugs *♥ *and relaxing vibes ~♥~

 

so it went down on saturday! it was a knock down, drag out, place your bets before the bitch gets killed, action packed day! all in the lovely setting of the san diego zoo. lol!! let me begin this tale with a bit of history....

saturday my mom, dad, sister, her husband, my niece miss audrey, and justin's dad, step bitch, and weirdo lil bro all went to see justin and go to the zoo. my family got to justin's at about 11. my uncle and his freak show were going to get there around noon. they got to his place around 2!! my family were famished! we didn't have breakfast.. my uncle however did. they stopped and got lunch too! *aren't they considerate!?* i felt the tension when they came in. but it was pretty smooth sailing. then we all decided to go to the zoo and eat there... and of coarse see the animals. well, we decided to eat as soon as we got there. my mom enjoyed a tuna sandwich for lunch and then for dessert she moved on the my uncles wife!! HA!! i was sitting in between them and OH MY GOD!! i saw my grandma jump into my mom! it was not my mom who was speaking. my grandma was sooo there! it all started with the fact that his wife will not let him have a tattoo to honor justin. at one point she said that she thinks it looks bad on old people! {she is like half his age btw} my dad is the same age as my uncle! so ya, that didn't go over well. lol! then my mom was like, "well i don't agree with this. and i have to look you right in the eyes and tell you. i don't agree with a lot of what you've been doing. it makes me want to cry. we have been nothing but nice to you and you treat this family like dirt!!" then his wife goes "i knew this would happen! i told him to talk to you, and now it's happening!" then proceeded to tap her husband on the arm and say lets go. my mom then yelled "no, you aren't going anywhere!" then she said "do you want to go outside and talk. lets go outside." and off they went! my mom made her cry!! she hit some nerves! lol! they talked for 2 hours!! the rest of us decided to just go and enjoy the day. my uncle was shaking in his boots!! lol! he was sure that she was going to leave him. but nope, my mom talked to her. told her a lot of good things, but mostly bad. apparently just enough good to make her ok. she did end up finally coming back. and we all went around the zoo together. but wow! i have never ever seen my mom like that before. and i've so pissed her off before, but never ever like that! justin was awesome the whole time! m dad was so upset and embarrassed that my mom did that so he kept asking if everyone was ok. lol! he asked justin and he said "oh ya! i wish i could have been there to watch it! this has been need to have been done for a long time!" so see, my *vision* was right. justin is above her. she doesn't faze him. :D and neither does a crowed of people! he never once looked embarrassed or sad. he was joking around and having a great time! he is so great! i am so proud of that kid. :) and audrey had a blast! she is so cute. i got to carry her around and we looked at the apes together. it was really cool. :) i got pics and stuff to share. but as usual, i'm late to work! soo off i go! i will upload those pix and videos tonight. :) and i may just share if you all behave. ;) oh!! and one last thing! justin may come to seatle with my mom dad and i! we are going to visit my bro in 2 weeks and we are driving, but justin was thinking he could fly and then just spend the weekend with us. :) so we are all really excited! and he got one leg so far and then he will be getting the other tomorrow. :D so before you know it, that kid will be walkin! :)

ok, off to work! big (((hugs))) and ♥ to you all! happy monday!! ~alysia

whelp, it happened. my wit has gone to sleep. it is official, i have mush for brains. i am so beat from today and yesterday i can't even begin to think! lol! but i am sitting in my room i've got dragon's blood incense burning and a candle to help me focus a bit. ;) i'm listening to this song right now. and well.. this is pretty much what i felt like all day today:

i felt such pure peace and fulfillment today. it was wonderful. :) i started the day a bit concerned about my long day, but i did some yoga and really focused on having a great day. and by goddess i did! :D i had *visions* of a beautiful life that i have and what i will have. i really think that things are gonna be alright for this cowpoke... ok... i have no idea where the hell that came from! cowpoke?! really?!? lol!! but seriously, it felt good. and it still feels good. :) i hope i can hold onto this feeling for tomorrow. i've gotta deal with the evil bitch my uncle calls his wife!! patience and peace will be my weapons tomorrow. i may also through in some onyx for good measure. and if that doesn't work, i may just ram a steak through her heart!! ha!! my cousin was able to get onto myspace and he posted a broadcast thingy saying i'm back.. well, most of me is! ha!!! then he has his justin is thing saying justin will never stub his toe again! hahahahaa!!! lol!! gotta love that kid! he is so funny! he walked for the first time on one of his new legs on monday. :) then he will get the other one probably this coming monday. that is so cool huh! 5 weeks after getting his legs blown off he is already up and running. well... kinda. you know what i mean! alright off to bed with me. :) i've gotta get up early once again! no rest for the wicked! i leave you with this.. a pic that well... has me speechless! and that's hard to do!!!

hope you all have a magical weekend! (((hugs)))~ alysia