hello all! as i sit here this morning all cozy in my favorite wrap, sipping my favorite tea {Irish breakfast kicks ass!}, and as i eat my latest obsession... wheat toast with butter and cottage cheese... yum yum yum! i began to feel a stabbing need to give thanks and a small update.. i always like to start with the goods, sooooo thank you, thank you, thank you,thank you,thank you,thank you,thank you!!!!!!!!!!! i want to thank everyone who gave me support and advice while i hid in the darkness silently weeping.. i think i really made a breakthrough this time! the darkness isn't quite so scary anymore! i am the queen of guilt!! and i now don't feel guilty for things that i have done... i see that they were a mistake and we, as humans, must make mistakes to grow! i see what i have done wrong and know that i need to "suck it up" and deal with what i have done! {don't worry, i didn't do anything to exciting! lol! just reckless money spending} i step out of the darkness and see that i have many friends who were there giving me a helping hand all along! and even if you may have not commented on my last post... i know that you are all there for me! and i thank you all for your friendship and support! a sense of peace has washed over me like the soothing waters of a great bath.
last night i did what cerberus suggested and i ask my tarot cards for some assistance on the subject.. and it was odd... what it said i was like DUH!!!! it was something that i already knew, but didn't want to know!! lol! then i meditated a bit with my black crystal ball {the stone escapes me right now!! i know its not onyx...} i began to fall into a very dream-like state, so i figured it was a good idea to go to bed! well i had a great dream that, i feel, clarified a lot for me!!
let me kinda set the stage.. my great aunt has been told that she has pre-cancerous cells in her uterus.... so they said that she must have a hysterectomy to stop them from becoming cancer. sooo my mom said that she would love to have one! only because her body can't decide if it wants to be a crone or not!! lol!
sooooo in my dream, i told my mom that she should go for it! get a hysterectomy! she said she would only do it if i did!! so i said sure!!! i had the surgery and when i woke up {from the surgery still asleep in real life!} i just kept looking at the scar and began to feel total regret and remorse for what i had done!! a millions what-ifs came to mind! the feeling was soooo strong that when i woke i still felt it!! i laid in bed for a while and just let it sink in.. i think i am allowing to many outside influences in my life and i see it as a don't get rid of something that is a piece of me! such as my dark side... embrace it and nurture it!
well any way!! thank you all again!!! hope you have a wonderful day and weekend!!!!
so today (october 9th) is john lennon's birthday! if i did the math right, he would've been 67 today. he is a true inspiration to me!! he had such a beautiful soul! i wish i was alive longer during the time he was alive! (i was only 2 months old when he was killed) i have always had a great connection to him... when i found out that his b-day was only 4 days after mine i was very excited!!! well i hope you enjoy this beautiful song that he wrote... it always brings tears to my eyes. just imagine how the world would be if he was still with us! :D
&hearts!! blessings to you all on this beautiful historic date!,
i am sooo excited!! look what i found in my garden!!!!!
my moon flower decided to bloom!! i just love it!! it smells soooo good!! it kinda like baby powder! :D
i was considering writing my own mabon ritual tonight... i can't wait now!! i am in such a witchy mood now!! hope you all are having a magical day!! i sure am!!
&hearts brightest blessings my friends &hearts!!!!,
Matron Goddess: Brighid (my bff!! lol), Akasha (this is what I named the Goddess a long time ago, and I still think it works!!)
Patron God: Lugh (a bright hunk of a man!!), Buddha (because I have always like Buddhism I decied to name the God this.. I know, I am weard!!)
Other Gods and Goddesses I work with:Arianrohd, The Morrgan, and any other that strikes my fancy!!! I LOVE learning about them!
Animal Totems: Dogs (thoses that know me would say duh!), my cat wants me to say cats, seals, manta rays, sea cucumbers (i told you i was weird!!), Ravens, Tigers, humming birds, and blue jays
Herbs and Flowers I feel drawn to: lavender, rosemary, pentas, belladonna, broom, geraniums (i love my martha!!), yarrow, mint, and TIGER LILYS!!
Stones I feel drawn to: Opal (october baby, what can i say!), mother of pearl, agats (all of them), adventurene (i think that's how you spell it!),and my fav solodite!!
My Metal(s) Of Choice: silver? this is new to me sorry...
Trees that I feel drawn to: liquid amber, willow, oak, and many more that i don't know the names to!
Astro stats: Libra, libra, libra!!! lol!
Favorite Sabbat: Samhain! Favorite Season: Fall (again october baby!! :), and summer
Favorite Element(s): air (libra!!), and water
Mythic Creatures I feel drawn to: elementals, faeries, trolls (very mistunderstood! they can be cute!!)
Spells that come easy to me are: candles, protection, any kind of charm (the poetry end of it!),
any kind of help for others- LOVE to do those!! , and cleansing Types of divinations/witchy services you do: rune cards (but not runes- hi i'm a weardo!!!lol), pendulum, tarot, i think i could do reiki if i was trained in it (my ex would get headachs a lot and i could make them stop if i gentally rubed my hands on his head and "took" his pain from him -sucked for me, but i would take some motrin and be fine!!)
Favorite Ritual Tool: any of my stones i need to use, candles, my rune cards, dragon's blood incense, my broom (i love her!!), and my great grandpa's shillelagh (irish walking stick, it's awesome!!!)
Type of Witchcraft you practice: feel free to label me a wiccan celtic garden witch-groomer who loves all paths and is eager to learn more!!!!!
I've loved everyone's blogs about what it means to them to be a
witch so I thought I would do my own! So what does it mean to be a
witchy woman to me you ask? Well let's find out together!
My
childhood was great! Full of happy times and great memories of sleeping
in on sundays... that's right sleeping in on sundays!! I was raised
with no religion. My mom was raised the same way, and my dad was
baptized both catholic and mormon! -he's covered!! lol! When his
parents got a divorce he was kinda pulled in two different directions
spiritually. So I think he decided that he didn't want to do that to
his children!
Growing up my best friend came from a very
cristian family. You know the bit -no bad tv or movies, cant go out on
sundays, the whole strict thing! Well one day I went with her to her
youth group. And boy was that a mistake!! After mingling with the other
kids for a while it was movie time. So we all gathered around to watch
a video about 4 kids who got in a car accident and died, died, died!!!
And only 1 of them went to heaven (guess who!). The other kids weren't
bad, no stealing or killings. They just didn't go to church and lied a
little here and there! When it was over the leader asked if anyone knew
some people like that. After just about everyone (except me) raised
their hands, she said "let us pray for them and hope that God can keep
them from eternal hell fire!!" It was just about this time that the
eternal hell fire was coming out of my ears!!!! Needless to say I
didn't go back to church with my friend!
All my life I have
always envied people who have religions, and have always kinda felt
like something was missing in my life. So I decided to study some
religions and see what worked for me! I found that I really like
Buddhism, but really enjoyed my stuff and hated having to think so hard
every time I read something on the subject! I tried many others, but
none of them fit! Until one late October night while watching vh1 I was
introduced to a religion I had never heard of before! There was a
interview with Sully Erna from Godsmack about him being a witch and how
Laurie Cabot was a big influence on him! I sat straight up and
listened! Then the Goddess blessed me later that night while I was
watching the travel channel! It was a show about witchcraft... And low
and behold they had Laurie Cabot on it!! I was completely sucked in!
The very next day I went to the bookstore and was blessed once again!
The very first book that I picked up was Wicca: A further guide for the
solitary practitioner by Scott Cunningham. (oddly enough it was the
second book but it didn't matter!) So I began reading it and was
amazed!! It was like I wrote the book! It was dead on as far as my
beliefs were concerned! It was then that I knew that I was always a
witch!
And so for 3 years I lived and loved the religion! Until
I meet my catholic ex-boyfriend... He was more than happy to "over
look" me being a witch (i hope you are reading the sarcasm in that
statement!). Over the 5 years that we dated he slowly took away my
religion (not completely! I still held on to my beliefs!), my feminine
beauty (he blew me up like a macy's parade balloon! ), and tried to
take me away from my family! But that horrible chapter is now over in
my life! And I am free!!! So what does being a witchy woman mean to me?
It means loving who you are, what you are, and what you've become! My
family says that there is now a peace in me that everyone can feel and
see. Many say that it is because of this that I am a successful
groomer, - the animals just know! What a truly wonderful spiritual life
we lead!!!! We are all free!!!!!!!!
Blessed be and thank you for reading!! Let me know your stories! We all have a beautiful story to tell, let's share! ;)
