i did it! yay!!! so yesterday i had to go to my mom and dad's house to finish up some dog grooming i had began last week. soo i was a little nervous about going cause i  have noticed that every time i go there i leave very anxious or i get an attack around them. i know it's all their energy. my mom's house is VERY sad and depressed. you wouldn't notice it from the outside, but for an empath... it's like walking into quicksand. and i knew that my uncle's passing would only make it worse. however, this time i saw it.. but i didn't feel it. my dad was his normal *sunshiny* self! and my mom was her usual happy/pretending nothing bad is going on like a cop saying *there's  nothing to see here people* when, in fact there's a whole lot to see.  we had a nice time and i went home happy and at peace. :) before i went there i did a little trick that cerberus told me about. i shielded my self. 3 of them as a matter of fact! lol! but the best part was at the end he says you put a green layer for healing for others. this, i think, really did the trick. even though they were bad, i felt like my presence alone was helping them. kinda weird i know. lol! but it was great! when i did this meditation, i also said that i choose what comes in and what goes out of these shields. it helped a lot. and then when i came home, just before i let my shields down. i thought. i am so happy that i didn't take on any of their crap! and as i began to drop them i suddenly felt the nastiness from them! i think it was hanging on the outside! lol! but i sat there and allowed the calming and healing colors of green and blue whoosh around me. i then put up a white shield and went to sleep with the spin cycle on!! lol! i feel great this morning! absolutely great!  it was so funny cause literally as soon as  i dropped my old ones they bad latched on. i mean so strong that i suddenly felt my mom's neck and shoulder tension! it was pretty intense! also, i made a conscience effort to be positive and happy around them. i even baked and brought a cake. :) that put some smiles on their faces! 

so then.. i also wanted to tell you all that i was right! i got mr. poe from my uncle. :) i don't know if he was a big fan or anything. but my mom tried to find some poe books but came up empty handed. she found a cool old book of poems and brought that for me. i was skimming through it and i kept saying i bet poe's in here. i just know he is. and i was right. they have 2 of his most sweet loving poems in there. :) so.. i got poe! :D also they got me an aristotle book and a sherlock holmes book. my uncle read to us all once when we were going to las vegas. it was a sherlock holmes story. {i was like 16, so no it wasn't cause i was a kid who needed it. we were just board so he read to us. :) it was really awesome!} my mom said she wasn't sure which book it actually was.. i kinda think it is this book. i feels right. when i touch it i feel love. :) so yay!! i am very excited! they all are in my special book case that's behind glass. i will read them one day. it will be a lovely connection to him. :) ok i need to get ready! hope you all are having a great sunday!! (((hugs)))~ alysia

i want to welcome you all to my circle. :)

it is still up and i am just wrapping up the group spell. i thought i need to not only have you all with me on the astral plane.. but on the internet one too. ;) everything went so well. i really feel at peace and very positive. the moon has been nothing but pure perfection tonight. i saw her rise, she began as a big redish orange ball in the sky. larger than life itself! then she got higher and became a more yellowy sphere. until she was the beautiful silver goddess in the sky, round and perfect. :) my candles are still burning. the energy in my home is amazing right now! i can really feel the strength, fears, and love that you all have put out there. :D in my workings i included my special friends and their energies. brighid will bring in the fire... the strength to get done what we all need to get done. and bran will bring in the courage and protection. he will give us all the love, power, and humor to get though it all. he will help us keep it light!! ;) i feel them strong and i have sent energies towards you all. i know that we all will get through this and i know that we will all be laughing our way to the bank, if you will. for what is life without laughter?? BORING!!! ;)  i hope you all don't mind, but i felt compelled to pull a card for us all... we got the wheel of fortune.

this is the perfect card for us!! it stands for: fortune. godsend, special gain. culmination. approaching the end of a problem. {that's what i'm talkin about!!} and advancement! so see, looks like we are doing good! :D i want to thank you all who helped out here. ***may the power of the goddess give you strength. may the love of the goddess guide you. and may the energies of this full moon give you all that you desire!*** love, life, happiness, success, peace, and prosperity are here for us all. together we shall find it, but personally we shall keep it. ;) sending you all some love and a little green to get your hearts a bit lighter!

kiss kiss~~~ now to close my circle!! ~&hearts~ alysia

what a perfectly lazy sunday! i have been up for about 3 hours and i am still in my pjs and i have been on the computer the whole time! lol! keeping up with you all is quite time consuming!! *not in a bad way of coarse! ;)* so my plan for today??? it is one of witchy goodness. i'm gonna go pick up some morning glory and perhaps some basil  and other herbs. someone left a trellis by my trash so i took it and put it in my backyard. :D i'm going to have the m.g. climb it. and yesterday i had pizza with fresh basil on it. and damn was that good! so i was thinking i need some of that too. :)  i also plan on doing some cleaning and laundry. cause i am over due! oh and i am thinking of doing a small spell for my bro. he is in japan right now! this is his first time out of the country. so i am excited for him! he is on a business trip and his wife will be meeting him out there too. :D so i just wanna do a little protection for him. :)

so here's a little side effect to my *psychic showers* {for anyone who missed that post: i do a small meditation before bed to let go of any anger/pent up rage/irritations/you get the idea! lol! from that day}. i have noticed that i forget what it was that irritated me! i wanted to post some things that happened the day i saw justin.. but i had to stretch to remember! lol! it's kinda nice. and once i remember i don't feel irritated or anything. it's like i am remembering something that just *happened*. kinda weird huh?!? i think i truly am letting go of it at that moment!

so here's some magical things that i wanted to tell you all about. {yes they involve the drama that i want to share. ;) } #1. i explained how justin stepped on a home made land mine... well... when he was deployed, i did a protection spell for him. it is the same one that i've done every time he's gone out. however, this time i placed protection on everyone who was with him. i ask to have all of his buddies protected. i ask to have no one who was with him die. {he's lost some great friends, so i didn't want him to have to go through that again!} what i  find to be totally amazing, is that no one died! his platoon even was under fire when he was taken away, but no on died! and here's the things that are amazing to me. justin should've died on at least 2 of his deployments! the first time he was the gunner on the hummer. so he had the  most dangerous job. he was completely exposed! and he was hit. they ran over a bomb and all he got was shrapnel in his hand and some hearing loss. the driver didn't make it. :( but really wouldn't you think the dude who is not inside the rolling vehicle should've been the one to loose his life??? and this time.... he stepped on a freaking land mine!! and so did 2 other guys who were with him! no one died. and check this out! when he got hurt, they called for a hummer to come and take him and the other injured ones away... that hummer hit a land mine! as far as i know, no one died. then they had to wait for a black hawk to come get him. once he was being loaded onto the helicopter, the attack began. so he and the other injured dudes were safe. crazy huh?!? when i heard about all of that it made me sit back and scratch my head. i am in awe of the awesome power of magic! that is intense! and thennnn..... his personality/positiveness and healing, i feel, has a lot to do with magic as well! he had some scares with blood clots, but he was ok. he is feeling good enough to put himself into a wheel chair! in his hospital room he has a roommate. that dude only lost 1 leg. when his doc came in he sounded like he was soooo sad. and sooo depressed. so see. you all are helping immensely! thank you so much for that! :) 

now onto our bindings.... his step mom has been soooo good to him! her true colors are shining with my uncle, who in turn is telling us all about her wonderful demeanor *note the sarcasm!*  however, justin is completely unaffected. at first, when i heard that she was being a bitch again, i was like damn it didn't work!! but then i realized i bound her to be good to justin. to not hurt him in any manor. so that, as far as i'm concerned, is working! the only thing that i didn't foresee as an issue is his father... my uncle. he is playing the victim right now. justin's mom has been with him this whole time. she even flew back to ca with him she hasn't been home at all. my uncle lives very close to where she lives, which is like 4 hours away from s.d.. apparently the military has housing for the families of the injured. so she has been staying there. well.. up where justin lives, there has been all kinds of fund raisers going on. my uncle said that you can't even go into a grocery store without seeing a bucket there for him. isn't that cool?!!? well, some of the money is being raised for his mom and dad so they can visit him. you know, for gas, dog sitter, and whatever else. my uncle's work has said that he can take all the time he needs off... well... here's the thing. justin is on his second week of being in ca. my uncle hasn't gone at all. he is saying that his ex wife has *probably* taken  all of the money. that he doesn't know where any of it is... well you know what?? so f**king what! he's an adult, he can either call her and ask, or he can pay himself! why should justin not have his dad with him just so that he can prove a point! LAME!!! i went ahead and had my car fixed, even though it cost me more money then i had, just so i could visit my cousin! so why can't he! i make WAY less then him and i still did it! it cost me $600 to go see my cousin. it won't cost that much for my uncle. he can get housing from the military or he could stay with my mom who is like an hour away! ggggrrrrr that just pissed me off so much! and his wife has been selfish and i know that a lot of it has to do with her and the fact that she doesn't want to see my uncles ex!!! so ya. that's some of the drama! but like i said. i think the good outweighs the bad. as long as justin has his friends and some of his family and is in good spirits, then as far as i'm concerned, things are good! i've asked my mom over and over to let me go off on both of them. but she says no. they would be surprised at how mean i can be when someone i care about so much is being hurt! but i will bite my tongue and bide my time. if i ever see them directly hurt justin.. then there is no stopping me! lol!!  they will have the full wrath of my grandma! i'm sure she will take me over! lol! ok. i think this is llllloooonnnngg enough! :D i hope you all have a magical day!! sending tons of luv to you all!

((((hugs))))~ alysia

i did it! :D my first binding. it is done. it felt soooo good! and so very right. i took elements from all your suggestions. ~thank you all so very much for your help! i'd be so lost without ya! i guess most of the books i have are against binding. oh well. i like my spell, it was cool! here's what i did. i lit a fire in my yard. i have a table next to my fire pit thingy, so on that i placed some rune cards that i felt were special for this occasion. i used them as a guide, a way to keep things positive. i also laid out about 5 of the 10 crow feathers that i gathered. {i think this was their purpose, why i need to have them} i lit a black taper candle and a red one. *for protection and love* and i burned dragon's blood incense. i gathered yarrow, lavender, pentas, honeysuckle, chinese lantern, and geranium. i threw them in the fire. the yarrow, lavender, and honeysuckle were for love, peace, and calm. then the pentas and lantern were to represent me. they have some of my soul in them.. *they are my favorite in my garden* and the geranium is from my great grandma. my mom inherited the plants, then i took them. she was my cousin's g-gma too. so i wanted to tie that all in. then i wrote on a piece of paper some of the goals i had. and what i hope to accomplish with this. i then wrote on a separate piece of paper her name with her bad qualities. what i feared she may do. then i took that paper and wrapped it in black cloth. i made a little ghost out of it. ;) then i cut an opening right where the mouth would be. i recited the goals paper after the circle was cast. i said it 5 times. then i rolled it up and dripped candle wax on it from each candle. i also tied it in red yarn. i said something about sealing it and binding it. then i tossed it in the fire. i gave it to brighid. then i proceeded to sew the *mouth* shut of my *ghost*. i don't remember exactly what i said. but i know it was something about no harm, i do this with love, hold back her bad qualities, etc. i put the *ghost* in a safe spot. i'm trying to decide if i should keep it until she comes back, or if i should bury it. i was thinking the burying thing would be good. i could also put some of the ashes from the fire with her. and this way it may last longer. the spell that is. so then i sat and watched the fire. i thought of all the great times i had with my cousin.. it was quite magical. i felt the presence our my grandma and grandpa very strongly! it was really nice. :) it seems that almost every time i do something magical out side i am shown over and over my connection with air. every time i did something in which i used my focus and energy the wind would blow real hard! lol! it was pretty cool. a few times the candle almost went out! and it was pretty cool that my obnoxious neighbor didn't get home until it was done. it was really to perfect!

and with a special thanx to karismar and merle, the bitch is bound thrice! :D i have no doubt in my mind that this is gonna work. she will *behave*. thank you all again!

**whispering weathered words into the wind.

feelings of peace and love set in.

blessings bloom as the healing begins.**

(((hugs))) ~♥~ alysia

hi guys!!! so i wish i could stay and chat *grabs coffee cup and bagel* but i've gotta run! i've got 11 dogs i'm doing today! my first apt starts at 9 am and i should be home at 8 pm!!!! i will be making about $500! *clapping* yay!! but this is not any new clients, i just have a lot on my plate today. not to say i don't need the money!! lol! and looks like friday will be the same! eek!!! i'm gonna be one tired witch! so i'm sorry if i haven't been around so much. i've been all over the place {psychically and emotionally!} i'm gonna try to come on here tonight and check in on you all. i miss you guys!!!! so i leave you with some kick ass poe stuff!! enjoy!!

here's christopher walken reading the raven:

and a really great tim burton video!!:

((((hugs))))~ alysia