October 9th 1940 John Winston Lennon was born. :) in my mind he is the most talented, beautiful, and wise soul in the world!! he caused people to think, feel, and dream. it is an absolute shame he was taken from us so young. i always think "how would john lennon feel about our currant situation?" if i didn't have to work today i'd do a bed peace session! ;)

my uncle lance loved that beatles. john lennon was his favorite. i hope uncle lance and john are kicking it in strawberry fields right now!

i leave you all with some of his great works:

some poetry

Good Dog Nigel

Arf, Arf, he goes, a merry sight
Our little hairy friend
Arf, Arf, upon the lampost bright
Arfing round the bend.
Nice dog! Goo boy,
Waggie tail and beg,
Clever Nigel, jump for joy
Because we are putting you to sleep at three of the clock, Nigel.

About the Awful
I was bored on the 9th of Octover 1940 when, I believe, the Nasties were still booming us led by Madalf Heatlump (Who had only one). Anyway, they didn't get me. I attended to varicous schools in Liddypol. And still didn't pass-much to my Aunties supplies. As a memebr of the most publified Beatles me and (P, G, and R's) records might seem funnier to some of you than this book, but as far as I'm conceived this correction of short writty is the most wonderfoul larf I've ever ready.

god help and breed you all.

**i guess all the grammatical errors and miss spellings are supposed to be there. john was dyslectic. hope you all have a great day!! (((hugs)))~ alysia

this morning, like many this week, has been very calm and slow. i had a client cancel because of very good reasons. i am  not upset at all. and she rescheduled for friday anyway. -but it gave me time to sleep in and enjoy my home, animals, and extend my morning ritual/yoga. so a very good  morning. today i was given a divine gift from brighid. lately i've been feeling a dark cloud above me. i usually am able to fight it off, but sometimes it takes over. dark thoughts cloud me and i become melancholy. and usually when this happens, i don't give myself time to meditate or do yoga. so this morning i did. and my beloved goddess spoke to me. gave me the wisdom to carry on and feel great full. this is what she said: 

*every morning is a gift. you should wake up and understand this. everyday you wake up, you did not die. you did not have someone come in your house and hurt you, your animals, or steal your possessions. you did not wake up to illness. you do not have a terminal disease. and the best part. each day is a new beginning. each day you can start over. each day you can treat as a clean slate. you can choose how this day will evolve. this is your choice. this is your life. so live it and love it.*

i know people say to greet the day with a happy heart. to be thankful, but i never understood why. lol! i am sooo not a morning person. i know that this won't change. i like the dark. and that's ok, but i now see the beauty of a fresh start. i thought you should just be thankful for another day, but now i see why it is such a gift. living life, day to day, pay check to pay check, you become so numb to the beauty and divine gifts that are around us all. life is beauty, people are beauty, the world is beauty. let's all enjoy it! ;)

today i also pulled 2 rune cards (as is my tradition). i got one that is all about movement and travel. makes sense.. i get it a lot.. i drive all over for a living! lol! and i got the lagus card which says *go with the flow*. i used to get this card a lot. and it is  coming back into my life as a reminder. i am so close to the element of air that i can sometimes act like fire. i *blow* though situations. get stormy and ragging mad for dumb things. like if i get cut off or something. part of my element and my upbringing. my parents have the curse of the short fuse too. lol! we rarely show this in public and i never put it on to people. i usually explode alone in my car or at home. so i am reminded to be calm and know that things happen for a reason. even dumb little things. like getting cut off. perhaps i need to slow down. maybe there is a cop, or i need to be late somewhere. and if a client cancels, maybe i need that time to relax. i need to remember to trust in my god and goddess and the universe. they don't want me to suffer... sometimes i forget that. :) thank you brighid! you are the best!

another divine gift here. i wanted to find a new pic of brighid for this post. so i typed in all kinds of things. then i thought why not put in celtic goddess. so i did. when i came across this pic i just about died! not only is she amazingly beautiful.. but this is pretty close to how i think she looks! and get this. the person who posted this.. her name... is tigerlily. for those of you who haven't known me for a while on this site.. that was my old craft name. ha! crazy huh??!

enjoy your gifts today! may they all blossom into beautiful memories and treasures for years to come! ((((hugs))))~ alysia

Isn't she cute!?!!?

KATMANDU, Nepal - Hindu and Buddhist priests chanted sacred hymns and cascaded flowers and grains of rice over a 3-year-old girl who was appointed a living goddess in Nepal on Tuesday.

Wrapped in red silk and adorned with red flowers in her hair, Matani Shakya received approval from the priests and President Ram Baran Yadav in a centuries-old tradition with deep ties to Nepal's monarchy, which was abolished in May.

The new "kumari" or living goddess, was carried from her parents' home to an ancient palatial temple in the heart of the Nepali capital, Katmandu, where she will live until she reaches puberty and loses her divine status.

She will be worshipped by Hindus and Buddhists as an incarnation of the powerful Hindu deity Taleju.

A panel of judges conducted a series of ancient ceremonies to select the goddess from several 2- to 4-year-old girls who are all members of the impoverished Shakya goldsmith caste.

The judges read the candidates' horoscopes and check each one for physical imperfections. The living goddess must have perfect hair, eyes, teeth and skin with no scars, and should not be afraid of the dark.

As a final test, the living goddess must spend a night alone in a room among the heads of ritually slaughtered goats and buffaloes without showing fear.

Having passed all the tests, the child will stay in almost complete isolation at the temple, and will be allowed to return to her family only at the onset of menstruation when a new goddess will be named to replace her.

"I feel a bit sad, but since my child has become a living goddess I feel proud," said her father Pratap Man Shakya.

During her time as a goddess, she will always wear red, pin up her hair in topknots, and have a "third eye" painted on her forehead.

Devotees touch the girls' feet with their foreheads, the highest sign of respect among Hindus in Nepal. During religious festivals the goddesses are wheeled around on a chariot pulled by devotees.

Critics say the tradition violates both international and Nepalese laws on child rights. The girls often struggle to readjust to normal lives after they return home.

Nepalese folklore holds that men who marry a former kumari will die young, and so many girls remain unmarried and face a life of hardship.

so yesterday my internet went down. it sucked! i was amazed at how much i really do use it! i called the help desk about it and they couldn't figure out the issue from there. so they said they'd have a dude come out today around 1.  which i won't need cause it began to work this morning, just as magically as it stopped! but it was so funny. i knew i couldn't get on cs or anything like that. then i had called a new client made an apt with him and then had no way of figuring out how to get to his house! no google maps, nor mapquest!! and then there were sooo many little things that i wanted to know. thought well i could look it up on the inter... no i can't! it was weird. i had no idea i was so dependent! and i was so excited when i woke up to see it working! it's kinda sad. i mean i'm ok if i'm busy. if i am working or out with friends. but if i am home alone. i want the internet! and if i am cleaning the house, gimme my net! -i like to listen to music online. :D and it's funny. the internet going off was kinda like a symbol for how i felt. i felt very disconnected. i was great in the am. then suddenly when i was all done with work...i felt sad, mad, etc. things happen for a reason, and i think that the internet when to sleep for a reason. i need that thinkin time. i went for a very long walk and thought. listened to the medicine buddha over and over again. and just thought. it felt really good.

you know, i adore my family. they are wonderful people. they are strong, funny, and caring good people. but i am seeing more and more that so much of my issues come from them. it's not just a mommy daddy issue. it's far beyond that. i stem from a very judgmental group of people. my mom really wanted to be a hippy when she was young, but didn't for fear of family ridicule! my dad is socially awkward because of his sides ridicule. when i got my b-day bat tat, i had a small anxiety attack. i was suddenly worried about what they all would think! i felt guilty for having it done. i felt guilty for not having gotten my uncle or cousin tattoo... then it hit me. that is why i fear being my truest self out in the world. why i try my hardest to fit in. why i may not wear whatever i want to wear. or do my hair how i want. or am even afraid to get my arm tattooed. my mother said please don't. i've wanted to since i was a kid. but i keep chickening out. you see, when i went to the zoo i told the great and powerful judge.. my sister. i told her that i got a b-day gift from a friend in the form of a tattoo. she rolled her eyes then said, "did you get the uncle lance tattoo?" when i told her no  she looked at me with disappointment. and i told her that i wanted my tattoo artist to do it and i wanted to be the one to pay for it. i didn't want it to be a b-day gift. then she said, "i think we may have had this conversation before, but is there ever going to be an end to this... tattooing?" i told her no. that i want to be covered from head to toe! and then said something about how i have things in  mind that i want, but people keep dying! and she said that people will always die, and can't i just remember them?! then i changed the subject. my mom and dad were more excited about it. and seemed to like my lil rodrigo. but i have always had this thing that i will not feel 100% comfy with something unless my mom says "cool". that's gotta change! lol!!! and i was talking about online friends with my sister and she went off on how only guys who are online are weirdos and that you shouldn't ever trust anyone online. gggrrrrr! she gets under my skin sometimes. she's always acted like i was way below her, but she has gotten way worse over time. especially since she married her a-hole husband. who made a *joke* comparing me to an anchor, because i always weigh everyone down. (and i know he meant financially cause everyone says i make gatherings much more light and fun!) i guess it's just another proving point of my family seeing me in a roll. the gesture. i guess. oh well. i don't need to live up to their rolls. i am who i am. my dad sees it. and my mom does to an certain extent. they both, at times, have told me how proud they are of me. but it always has to be while i am in a crisis and crying. why not just tell me! that way i won't be sad and crying!! so ya, i'm going to keep building up who i am. going to keep being proud of who i am. and i'm going to keep getting tattooed! dammit! ha!!

and one last thing. sorry, this is a doosie! lol!! i was thinking about samhain. and my celebration. this will be a year of big celebrating for me. and i was thinking of including relatives who i have never known and even ones who passed a long time ago. but when i was watching a spooky show on tv i had a thought. they spoke of mr. poe's ghost. they said he haunts some place in philadelphia. and i thought, no he's already been reincarnated. (like i know or something! lol!) but i know that ghost can just be residual and stuff. so it may not be his soul just a  recording. my point.. ah yes.. my point! i wanna honor him and some ancestors from so long ago that  i would think that they may have been reincarnated by now. i mean buddhist believe that 48 days after you die you are reincarnated. but i personally believe you hang around for as long as you'd like. bbbbbuuuutttt... my thought is that perhaps you honoring the long ago dead and them *visiting* you is possible. that maybe during sleep or even when we *zone out* for a little while we can travel. and maybe then we truly remember who we once were. and maybe that's part of the reason why spirits come out at night. because they are people who are sleeping. :) i am learning so much about my ancestors from my uncle and i would love to chat with them, but one of them founded rhode island... so not very recent on the death list. lol! but i wonder if i do it late enough he may just pop in anyway. just a thought.. 

have a great tuesday kids!! ((((hugs))))~ alysia      

thank you all so much for your b-day love!! i had the most beautiful weekend. it was very magical! i was given gifts of love, of beauty, and even a few divine treasures! on saturday i really enjoyed my lazy day. it was raining and beautiful out! i went to a few stores. i decided to pick up boris and bella, the book that my tattoo came from. i was striking out at ever bookstore i tried in the past. so i went to one on saturday and found it. but get this.. it was the last copy! i snatched it up like it was a piece of gold! ha!! then i went to michaels to pick up a halloween tree. i wanted a small black one. nothing to fancy. well... i got it.. and know what??  it was the last one! ha!! i also picked up so me fire wood and had a lil bonfire in my yard. it was wonderful!! it sprinkled a bit in the beginning, but then it decided to just open up and rain. so i figured the gods where telling me i was done! ha!! i did a little magic while i was out there too. i love doing that!! :D and i ended the evening with watching my bela lagosi dvd. it was awesome! good times!

sunday was just as magical. it was warmer out. and no clouds. so no rain. the animals were beautiful and so was my family! i had only 2 friends show. one said she was coming then didn't show and only called me at the end of the day. that didn't even bother me! i had a beautiful day. we ended it at the hard rock and had a great meal. good food, great people, wonderful energy! my dad was on good behavior and my friends had a great time! they brought their son who had a blast with my niece! so cute! i brought my camera, but no pics. didn't feel like it! lol! i also know my uncle was with us. as well as my grandma and grandpa. it was just beautiful. my mom and sis told me that the cubs and the dodgers were in the playoffs together. -my uncle was a die hard baseball fan. he, being from burbank, LOVED the dodgers! so when he moved to chicago, he still followed them. he liked the cubs, but LOVED the dodgers. so it was really cool that they played each other. and it's even better that the dodgers won! it would be so neat to have them go all the way. i am sure my whole family will be in tears if it happens. :) i guess his wife and some friends gathered at his house for the games. i am sure he was there for it all. ok, as usual, i'm running late to work! lol! off i go! but thank you all again! hope you all have a beautiful day! i'm gonna celebrate my b-day all month! ha!! cause i just love october! oh! so did any of you do something special for alysia day??? hmmm??? do share. :D ((((hugs))))~ alysia