ok... i have some more thoughts on my proposal to myself... if this makes no sense please refer to my last post!
so, today i put a ring on and said to myself.. today i promise to honer, trust, and love myself. to take care of me and do what makes me happy! and i have to say, i had a great day!!:D i have decided that i will do this everyday... kind of as a reminder that i am powerful, strong, beautiful, kind, and just a kick ass person! of coarse this isn't something that i am doing to puff up my ego.... it's just that i need to be happy with me... know what i mean? i realized that i was looking for this:
a knight in shining armor.. a man who can take care of me and "make" me happy. but i realized that i don't need that! that i can make me happy and i can take care of me! i want to be in a relationship to experence love.. not for someone to save me and then in the end make me dislike myself. anywho.. just wanted to share. :) thanx for listening! hope you all have a wonderful night!
so i woke up with a massive headach today! must be becasue i had my brain on overdrive yesterday. i ment to post, but i was just to cotton-pickin bussy! didn't have many dogs, just spread out so i didn't have time to scratch my head. i had an idea yesterday... some what hair brained.... but an idea non the less! i wanted to share it with you all! :D aren't you guys lucky!! lol! i was thinking that i should marry myself! {see i told you it was cooky!} but hear me out... the whole point of marriage is to honer, trust, and love right.. and for some the great sex you have on your honeymoon! lol! now, great sex aside, isn't that all stuff you should feel and do for yourself? i truly feel that in order for me to really fall in love with someone and potentialy marry him... i must fall in love with me! i've had my whole life to cort myself, so maybe it's time i pop the question! and i really mean it.. handsfasting may be difficult.... not sure how to tie my own hands together. but i can figure something out! i'm thinking ring, vow, and maybe a kiss! lol! but perhaps i should get myself a ring that i wear every day as a reminder that i love, honor, and trust... me! i always tell my friends to go with their hearts when they have a big desision. i see that is a lot of self trust, and knowlage. and mabe this will help me give myself more complements.. i mean i want a happy marriage! so what do you guys think? i kinda like it! hey, may be the only chance i have to say i do! lol!!!
i'm sure that most people have heard this, but heath ledger was found dead today. it's so sad. he was an amazing actor. he has a little girl too. he was only 28. it's funny, when i think about how old i am i say that i am an adult. like "i should do this because i am 27! i'm an adult!" but when i think of dying at this age i think wow that's so young! crazy isn't it... he really was to young. tonight i light a candle for him and his family...
so in america most people have today off. today is a day that we honer an amazing man. today we honer martin luther king. his actual birthday is jan. 15th. if he had not been killed, he would've been 79 then. here is his famous "i have a dream" speech. until i watched this i had forgotten that this speech was in front of the lincoln memorial. two truly great men...
we need people like this today. we need someone who is not afraid to speak up. watching this makes me want to do something with myself. makes me want to strive to be a better person. makes me realize that we all have the power to do something great!! tonight i shall light a candle for mr. king. i hope he knows what an impact he had on america!
have a great day guys! i'm off to work! aahhh the life of a small business owner! lol! i think i shall observe this holiday next year. i think mr. king deserves it! well, if i do that i will also do lincoln's b-day. he deserves it too! :)
i feel like as if i had a blindfold that has been ripped off! it's amazing what the world is like when you really open yourself up! i have had so many little breakthroughs! i feel as if i know myself better now than i ever have! and i just started the process! :D any who! i just had to share! life's pretty good right now! i hope you all have a great night! peace-out!!
