i feel very relaxed and cozy.. but i feel VERY artistic and VERY VERY VERY romantic!!! but this kind of romantic:
i just feel like a
need a warm cozy hug from a boy... i suppose a kiss wouldn't be so bad
either! lol! i also just feel like drawing, writing, and laying down in
the middle of the street! but this time i want someone with me!!!
*sigh* oh well.. you can't always get what you want... well off to
groom, the dogs won't groom themselves! *sigh* man i am doing that a
lot today!
i would like to wish everyone well this x-mas and full moon! she was just beautiful out here, just had to share!
goddess grant me the wisdom to see what i need to change so i may be a more complete person.. please give me the strength to make the changes i need to make... with your love in my heart i know i can do anything!! with your help may i live my life with eyes wide open! may i never walk through the world with a blind fold. and may i have the courage to see my life for what it is... something that is filled with heart ache, pain, love, beauty, and abundance! blessings given and received, i celebrate you and all of your kindness and love on this night! blessed be my lady!
well i guess there's always a first time for everything! after being a wiccan for going on 9 years, i have finally been disliked merely because of my religion! my good friend informed me the other day that she and her mom got into a religious debate because of me.... her mother is Muslim -by no means is she devout, her father on the other hand is. and he LOVES me!!! i have been in the room many times while he has prayed.... he always welcomes me with a big ol smile when i come into the house. her mother on the other hand... she is getting more and more cold. she rarely stays in the room when i come into the house. i was told that during their argument about religion that her mother said that i worship false idols and that i am brain washing her daughter to be just like me! ha me! i am usually the one to follow the crowd! i am not quite a follower.. but i am close! lol! so, that is not the only one.... my same friend also is trying to set me up with one of her brothers friends... well.. i guess that he was interested until he found out i was wiccan! i guess he looked on my myspace and saw all the wiccan stuff i have all over it! {you should check it out.. it's really cute! :D} he called her up and was like "um.. are you trying to set me up with a witch!?? ya, i am not comfortable with that!" turns out he is an atheist! i guess they are just as bad as people who have strong beliefs in religions! i guess both times my friend did stick up for me.. she yelled at her mom, even made her cry! then with the boy, she said that i am a kind and wonderful person and that my beliefs shouldn't get in the way... oh well! so.. like i said, this is a first for me! sooo i wrote an angry little poem! :D but i have to tell ya, i feel much better!! lol!
how can you hate what you don't understand?
my life is not yours to judge.
to say that you know when you don't is just as bad as you think i am!
the cold has entered you soul.
when i am near, does it hurt you?
bitterness and hatred washes over you when i enter the room.
changing someones life is not what i am after.
though you may think our friendship may cause a disaster!
i own my own thoughts, beliefs, and actions...
can you say the same?
piety should be left to the ones who know what they are talking about!
i can never change your view of me...
so i give you a great big smile and nod
while the words fu(k you dance merrily in my head
aaaahhhhh.... i feel much better!!! :D have a great day out their you false idol worshiping nut bags!! lol! ;)
so i just got home from my parents house. i stayed the weekend over there and got to hang out with my bro and his wife. i had sooo much fun! my sis also came with my niece little miss audrey. she is sooo freaking cute it kills me! i am trying to enjoy the hell outta her before she is old enough to speak.. that's when her father's idiotic ways will take over! but for now, she is a darling sweet little girl. here she is being way to cute!
i grabbed my camera just in the nick of time.. this is how she looks when she sees me:
it was kinda sad though cause this was the first time my brother has really seen the miserable side of my parents. they are really depressed, it shows now on the outside.. i can see it, but i thought it was just me.. but nope, my bro and sis can tell too. it's really sad.. but oh well, as many people have told me, i can't live their life for them! it's sad, they always try really hard to make me stay at their house just so that they don't have to deal with each other... it's like they need a buffer. and when my dad says things about my mom or my mom about my dad, i see genuine hatred for the other person in their face... it makes me sad.. i pray i never end up like that! i've said it once before and i shall say it again.... i would much rather be the crazy chihuahua lady than end up like that!!!! :D and at the rate i'm going, i just may end up that way! i've played the poor miserable girl stuck with the idiotic jackass... didn't suit me! i just enjoy being happy WAY to much! :D so, i shall carry on.. won't let ANYONE take my heart!.. ok, i feel better now! :D how about you guys?!? how was your weekend?? good i hope! oh, and here's 2 last things... 1st, this is for erin:
gigi!! :D
annnnddd.. here's something that i have started... it isn't finished, but i think it's kinda cool, let me know whatcha think!
Elinore was just a dream, or was she? a spectral phantasm dancing in the darkest corners of his psyche. to see her was to know her. to hear her was to believe in her. "i'm the only one who loves you." she would say. "just one more time, for me." she would lie. he could not deny the obsession he had for her. she was everything and nothing he wanted. to prove his adoration for her he would do what she asked. the first one was the most difficult. but the love she showed was well worth it.
that's all for now! :D have a great day guys!! &hearts!!!!
