i'm so excited! i just found a site that has every one of mr. poe's works! they don't just have the titles, they have the works too. so i will now be able to have a check list. and DAMN it is a big one! click here to check out his works if you have second. they are amazing! this one is so touching i just had to share:
*to my mother*
Because I feel that, in the Heavens above, The angels, whispering to one another, Can find, among their burning terms of love, None so devotional as that of "Mother," Therefore by that dear name I long have called you— You who are more than mother unto me, And fill my heart of hearts, where Death installed you In setting my Virginia's spirit free. My mother—my own mother, who died early, Was but the mother of myself; but you Are mother to the one I loved so dearly, And thus are dearer than the mother I knew By that infinity with which my wife Was dearer to my soul than its soul-life.
i have more stuff to yap about. but it is late and i feel the itch to read, relax, and write. one thing's for sure... my life is shifting once again. but in a very good way. i am settling into me. into my own life's rhythm. i've decided to live MY life how I was meant to live it... what the hell is she talking about?? you ask. well, i'll explain tomorrow. ;) goodnight my friends. sweet dreams. ~&hearts~ alysia
where to begin... hmmm... well. last week i finally purchased a passion flower vine. :D i love it! heather is right, it is sexy. just look at it:
isn't he handsome. i think he's a man. most of my plants are girls. now i'm not speaking in a scientific way. i just *feel* like he's a stud-muffin. ;) HA! i think his name is george! lol! that's what i was *told*. i don't know about you all, but i think george was a peacock in a past life! :) so there's some good news, now some bad. my mustange is gonna cost me $500 to fix! meow-ch!!! there goes my financial cushion. lol! looks like the clutch is a goner. ah, such is life. it will feel wonderful to have a car again. i still will bike my way round town. but when i wanna go see my mom, or go to the beach or something i will have a car. it will be nice. :) to bad i can't drive it for a while cause i broker then broke! lol! i have a good feeling that the gods are smiling down on me though. i am putting my faith in them and in myself. i can handle this. i can do this. i am going to, once again, listen to the signs and what the gods are telling me and i will do what needs to be done. does that make sense, or am i talking crazy religious talk??
oooohh! and i did pick up the mcr dvd. the best buy did accept the return. {for those of you who may have missed this story, i wanted the my chemical romance dvd that just came out. i wanted to see my hubby on my tv for once. ;) i went to get it. came home opened this big ol fancy $50 thing to find out it was just a special cd!! eak!!} and the best part! the dvd was only 20 clams!! yay!!!! i watched it the other night and it is settled. gerard way is my hubby for sure! i also listened to a radio interview that a local station had with him, and that secured my hunch. i also found out that he lives in l.a. now. i think i need to go *hangout* there now. lol! now if only i could figure out how to get his wife out of the picture...
so, yesterday was fantabulous! my sis came over with my niece. and we had a blasty blast. she is such a gift i swear! we were all afraid she'd be a pod child. but nope, she's really a great kid who really has a personality. :D perhaps my sister's walking void of a husband is good for sperm after all! then i went to the jimmy eat world concert. it was a good time. a band called dear in the headlight opened. they were like spin doctors meets the cure meets the killers. the were good. jimmy was great, but i am sooo used to a ROCK show that i have to admit i was a bit board at times. my brain would flitter to merle and all the hard rock fun she was having at her concert! but non the less, it was a good time. and i was really disappointed that weezer didn't open. my friend said they would be and that's why i forked out the 50 smackeroos to go. i wouldn't pay $50 to go see jimmy. they are good, but not $50 good. i've never even purchased one of their cds! lol! so i was really bummed that she was wrong.
and lastly, this morning i am just chillin. i have one client. and they told me i can come whenever. they are on vacation. so am going to get there when i get there. lol! so i woke up and pulled a karismar and i sat in bed and read. it was AWESOME! :D i think i read about 20 pages in my christopher moore book. and i finished it! i am happy and sad. i hate finishing books. lol! but omg! go get this book! it was SOOOOOOOOO good! i loved it! it was brilliant. it really was. so if you are in between books or just need a good ol fashioned wickedly witty book to read go pick up *a dirty job* by christopher moore.
all right kiddos i'm gonna gobble up some breakfast and check in on you all. hope this monday finds you well! oh, and p.s. gerard, mr. moore, mr. poe, brighid, and my niece have set my creativity into overdrive! i'm gonna have to write something real soon! so be prepared. lol! (((((hugs))))) ~&hearts~ alysia
let me begin with an explanation.. i had a rip roaring headache today. i also had a full appointment book! no rest for the wicked i guess.. so i groomed, i was cranky, didn't feel like me... my normally good dogs were lil bastards today! lol! i know it was cause of my mood. it also didn't help that we had record highs. it hit 106* people!!! i love love love that i am able to be outside all day everyday.. but today!?! i took a bath with the dogs, on purpose! thank the goddess for shorts and crocs! lol!! so as i was painfully looking though covenspace today i noticed that a lot of us could use some healing. i began to think of all my wonderful, beautiful friends here who are in need. a thought crossed my throbbing head... *write a poem for them. help them heal* so i thought about it. and the more i thought about it, the less my head hurt. so perhaps my lovely friends aren't the only ones who this poem can help. :) so here it goes... please let me know if i missed anyone. i would be more than happy to add you. :D
calm peaceful healing flows over your soul.
no more pain, or sickness to control.
karismar so sweet and kind,
may you find balance and a peaceful mind.
aphrodite's daughter so amazingly beautiful,
may you have your days in the sun doing what is so simple, yet meaningful.
chicoryflower so full of joy and beauty,
may you find what works so you can have your cake and eat it too!
willowluna so honest and powerful,
may you keep that sense of strength and peace for you are most deserving of something so beautiful.
whitewytch so happy and giving,
may you always find money in your pockets and in your life, love always thriving.
misha so intelligent and kind,
may your family be welcome into healths loving embrace, and may you have time for peace to unwind.
calm peaceful healing flows over your soul.
giving you a sense of understanding and control.
cerberus so giving and gifted,
may you channel the love from us all so your soul shall be uplifted.
pixie styx so funny and pure,
may you find the time to breath and laugh during this stressful blur.
donna so gorgeous and talented,
may you always know that you made a difference, and that everything you did counted.
heather so peaceful and loving,
may you no longer be burdened with the woes of money, bringing you back stability and calm.
jole' so great and beautiful,
may you be released from corporate b.s.so your life can be calm an peaceful.
morning rain so wise and grounded,
may your life continue to balance itself, and may you continue to have love in your life.
~&hearts~ may all my dear friends find love, peace, and unlimited happiness on this day and on many more to come! thank you all for being you, and giving me the gift of your friendship!!! ~&hearts~
today i feel so much love and peace. there is something in the air. it's very nice. :) i don't think i posted about this... but i lost my cucumbers and my watermelon. damn it! :( i have a lot of ants outside of the house and i guess they love them some plants! the eggplant is still doing smashingly! lol! sooo i am not one to allow ants to win... so i bought a new cucumber plant and also got a cantelope {sp?}, and pumpkin! :D i am gonna get rid of the nasty lil ants, i hope my new babies will survive. as i was taking them home i was talking to them {in my head of coarse! no need for unwanted attention! lol!} saying i hope i'm not marching you right to your death! *sigh* maybe i just don't have the knack for edibles. ooo i also got some chocolate mint and a foxglove!! :D yay!!! i want to make tea so bad! is tea a seasonal plant? i would want to do black tea... i like caffeine! oooh! and i have another quarry for you botanists of leisure, do plants mate??? i have a beautiful hummingbird salvia plant {which is quite invasive!} and it is right next to my lambs ear. the salvia is taking over, so i decided that while my hands were in the dirt, i might as well take her down a peg or two. as i began *pruning* her, {really i was madly ripping her out.. not very pagan of me.. i know} i realized that she was sprouting more and more lil babies. and the funny part is that the babies that were right next to the lambs ear were soft! just like the lambs ear! the flowers were even a little bit different! so am i just crazy? did the late afternoon sun just warp my fragile little mind?? orrrrrrr....
....long lost lovers, reunited at last!!!
it is so lovely out right now! i am just sitting here in the peace of my home. i hear the crickets singing... everything is so nice. {yes, LOVE the sound of crickets and grasshoppers. i know, i am crazy! lol! another reason why i really think they are my totems} i took a walk tonight. i haven't done that in a long time. it was so lovely. as i was just about to go home i saw the moon peaking out over the tops of houses. i decided to go follow her and see her rise. it was amazing! a murder of crows flew over my head as i got closer to her. i kept getting the sensation that i was not alone. and that today was a very special day! we had a BEAUTIFUL sunset too. i felt the deepest love in the air. i haven't experienced that in a long time. usually i know it's for someone else. but tonight was for me! like i said.. i didn't feel alone. :) i also was visited by a mourning dove in the beginning of my walk. it was so cute! she flew around me, it felt like she almost hit me! then she landed on the ground near me and just stared. it was like she was saying something to me.. to bad i left my bird, to english dictionary at home! lol! then she flew off when i said you better get out of the street! another sign of love for me. :D hope you all had a wonderful full moon night! i leave you with a little something i wrote a while ago. i think it fits perfectly!!!
Gifts from a cool summer breeze
My name is Arial Windmaker. I bring the soothing breeze on a hot summer day. I create the winds of change. And I can help show you your way. Come outside and listen to my song, for it is in your heart I belong. If you are confused about which way to go, just listen to my wind blow -let a nice summer breeze put you at ease Tell me about someone you miss, I shall tell them and their life will be filled with bliss If the winds have picked up your spirits, know it is from someone you hold dearest Ever wonder why you can sometimes feel a chill in the air? It is my way of telling you to beware On those perfect summer nights when the air is just right, know that it is my love that has taken flight Enter into nature, listen to what I say. For I do have a message just for you, if you take the time to listen... do you hear it?
and boy was it right! it is a card for peace and relaxation. i've been getting this card and the swan card a lot lately. both are a symbol for relaxation and for good karma. :) today i only had one client and i was able to get home and then ride my bike to target to pick up some stuff. :D i was really scared at first, i have to tell ya! i hadn't ridden a bike in a looooonnng time! but it was.... well, like riding a bike! lol! i had to adjust the seat cause my sis has long spindly legs! lol! my mom's side of the family are all long graceful things. long necks, legs, and arms. my dad's side of the family are more like.. well..... slightly evolved cavemen! lol! guess where my 5-4 body falls into! lol! i always said i had fred flinstone feet! lol!! but i've got a nice low center of gravity so i am very good at yoga! ;) the bike ride was so much fun though. very relaxing! can't wait to get my basket, cause the ride home was no picnic without it! i had a target bag slung over my shoulder. that was tough! then got home in time to chat it up with some wonderful witches! that was tons of fun! i sat outside and enjoyed! goddess i love batteries and wifi! :D
so because of my bike ride and also because *aunt flo* decided to pay a visit. i realized that i need some yoga bad today! lol!! yesterday i checked out some classes in my area. i found out that there is a place not to far from here that does $5 yoga nights! it's only once a week, but it's only 5 bucks! cool huh? i wanna get in on that one. :D but i do record namaste yoga on fit tv. i love it! it's only a half hour, but it is very good. i need to get in the habit of doing that daily.
so i have had an itch to write lately.. so i thought i'd scratch it. i found the perfect muse. :) so here is my poem:
an ode to aunt flo:
oh giver of cramps and taker of energy!
monthly visitor who rarely gives a warning call!
oh swollen siren of the south.
giving us a reason to be weepy.
oh how most women loathe thee!!
dreading your approach!
oh but how some look forward to thee!
giving us a reason for no unwanted sex, besides feigning headache.
oh how you give some hope!
proof that there is no life inside them!
oh how your are always there.
over barring, refusing to let us stay free from your visit!
oh timely visitor of my life,
may you not forever bleed on through the night!
:) hope you all have a kick ass friday! kiss kiss~ alysia
