wow! what a day!.. no let me rephrase that! what a week! i am so busy, it's awesome! lol! my first apt today was at 9am and i got home at 9pm! i had about a 2 hour break though. but it was still really crazy! i got home and stuffed some food down my throat and now i am attempting to catch up on you all and watch ghost hunters at the same time! lol! i simply must do some yoga tonight, i feel my muscles tightening! i've got another long ass day tomorrow and i am working on sat! i finally realized what i did wrong in the past! i would have situations like this, where i would be crazy busy, and i would constantly be looking forward for it to stop! now that's just crazy! lol! just like cerebus says, i wanna keep my vibes up! so i am trying to keep positive and know that i will find time to relax! i cherish my down time, i really do.. but i need to work my tail off so i can really enjoy it! annnd most importantly i won't feel guilty if i have down time! i will know that i deserve it. :)
so yesterday they were talking about dead birds on the radio. and today, i saw a dead baby bird. it looked like it fell out of the nest. it looked fake! but i know it wasn't. :( so what does it all mean?! what's the deal with death and birds and me?! kinda weird.
so i nabbed this from chicoryflower and merle
You Are 52% Evil
You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.
man i slept in today!!! i so didn't want to wake up! i was having the best dream ever!!! i will post this on the cozy cottage too. but i want to see what you all think. when i finally got up it was like i knew what it meant.. but here we go and yes it involves mr. tattoo! i don't understand why most of my memorable dreams involve him. he literally is the man of my dreams! ha!! lol! sorry i couldn't resist!:
my friend wanted to get a tattoo. she had decided to get a big design on her ankle. it was some purple thingy. {which is funny cause she hates purple!} we walked into the shop. which was the same shop, but it was in a different city. burbank to be exact. {odd because it is 45 mins away from the real location of the shop. and my mom and dad are from that city, born and raised. i'm sure that has some significance..} as we walked in i saw a bunch of dudes at a table playing poker, and the old shop hand {erin knows who i'm talking about!} came out from the back totally nude! ha! i even remember seeing all of his tattoos and such, very vivid. he smiled and said hey. to me. like it was no big deal he was nude! we went back to his station where my friend sat on the table to be tattooed. whats funny is we were all close it was like his station was really tiny! and it was reversed... so she asked him if it hurts to get a tattoo on the ankle. {another oddity because she likes pain and would never ask a question like that!} he answered, but he answered to me! he looked at me and said nope. it's really not that bad. he said his favorite parts to tattoo and be tattooed on is the ankle and shoulder blade. the he went, hey right were i've tattooed you! so you know. it's not that bad. :) and i said something like yep. then for some reason once he began to tattoo her he went off on a tangent on one of his tattoos on his arm! lol! he explained it, i was just waking up at this time, so i don't know what he was saying. but the over all feel of the dream was knowing and comfort. i was the one closest to him. even though my friend was being tattooed by him i was pretty much sitting right next to him. i think our knees were even touching. and her bf was there to, but he was behind me and soo not in the conversation!
so what do you all think?! some of the things i get, but not all of them. :) i just know that it was beautiful! and it felt real and was VERY vivid! i never have them that strong. hope you have a beautiful day!
i have been noticing a theme in my life lately... i'm around a bunch of unhappy people! family, friends, even clients. and it's weird to me because it seems like i can see simple solutions for these peoples problems. however non of them see it or want to do anything about it. i am a listener, i offer advise if they are willing to hear it. i don't mind if they don't take it i really don't. i think it is one of my gifts that i can listen, give advise and not be mad or offended if they don't take it. i am just realizing that i am hearing a lot from people lately who are "stuck" in a dead end relationship or in a job they hate, etc etc etc... while speaking with a friend about her bf who doesn't want to grow up, he is fighting it tooth and nail. so much so that it may end their relationship! i realized that the reason why he is scared is because it is the "unknown". it is just like how people fear death.. it is "unknown". i know many fear change, they get comfortable being uncomfortable.. but i also believe that they deep down inside fear that unknown. ie, what will happen if i leave, who will i hurt, will i be ok, etc. i know that i've been guilty of staying in a relationship for way to long! but now that i am out of that situation, i see how many people are in a very similar situation! why why why?! why must we cause ourselves to suffer? most think that they need to stay in the relationship for the other person, however if you are in a relationship and you are not happy... you better believe that other person isn't happy! for how can they not feel or see your emotions?! why not leave him/her so that you and that person can find the right person for them!?? we are a social species. we need a significant other, so why do we force ourselves to settle? most of us believe that there is someone out there for everyone.. so why stay with mr./miss. wrong forever?!? i just don't get it! i am sure a lot of it has to do with societal issues. we think we need to get married at whatever age, have 3 kids, and a house with a white picket fence... blah blah blah blah. it is such standards that cause people to be unhappy! ah! i am such an opposite girl! i swear! lol! you know, i just realized why i do that! it's a libra thing. i am trying to tip the scales back to normal. wow! that makes total sense to me now! ok, sorry! back to my rant! lol! i just get really bummed out for people. it's sad. and i find it odd that i have soo many unhappy people around me. i don't get it. somethings in the air. i guess what it comes down to is that people are different. i hate to be sad and i do whatever i can to fix it and make my life good again. not many live this way. and that's ok... i just feel bad for them. i wish i could help, but i know that it's their journey not mine! but it's funny, i do think that a lot of my advise is given to me from my guide or my spirit posy. sometimes i will say something to a person and be like, "damn that's good!" lol! i have no idea where it came from! lol! i also feel like some experiences from a past life may have stayed with me. my english teacher friend is usually surprised at my vocabulary. and i feel like i just know what certain experiences feel like. know what i mean? anyway... i am soo rambling now! why did you guys tell me to shut up!? lol! ok, i think my dogs are telling me to shut up! rosie is barking her head off! :) off i go to bed. hope you all have a wonderful day! i hope you do something out of the norm. i hope you do something that makes your soul shine! something that makes your heart sing! something that makes your brain say aaahhhhhhh... ;) (((hugs)))~ alysia
so i pulled a rune card, as i do just about everyday, and i got the man/human card.
if i ever get this i try to brace myself as much as possible... this card always means i will be busy! and wow was it true! i didn't groom much, but i had plenty of people to talk to and deal with! i got 1 new client. almost had another, but it didn't work out. as i was i.ming my brother i was talking to my sis on the phone! then my uncle called me! i spoke with my mom a million times too! i am beat! i just feel like i couldn't take a second to scratch my head! hey! i've got time now!! *scratch scratch* aaawwwwww that feels great! i am such a damn libra cause the only thing i can think of is the need for balance! i try to draw this kind of energy to me, but then when it's here i freak out! but when it's gone i get sad and try to bring it back! i can't keep this up! i need to figure out how to keep the energy but still have me time. i'll get it, i know i will. it just takes some practice. see i'm thinking well.. i've got me time right now, maybe i should watch tv, or a movie, or read! but i'm so tired! i just want to sleep! *sigh* i'll find that balance. on a side note, do any of you watch the dan ho show? i LOVE it!! it is on fit tv, it is awesome! he is a very upbeat kinda guy and he just goes to peoples houses and helps them figure out how to simplify their lives. hmmmm.... i could so use him right now! oh and one last thing before i fall asleep at my computer!! my great grandfather was a poet. i barely remember him. he died when i was really little. he is a bit of an icon in my family. everyone loved him! i had only known of 1 of his poems, one that he wrote about my sister. well really about my mom having a little girl. so i asked my mom if he had any more. turns out she has a ton of his poems!! i guess someone put them in a book {non published} that was given to the family. my mom's gonna look for it! i am soo excited! i can't wait to see what kind of a poet he was. i love looking back at my ancestors and seeing how much of them show up in me! :) when i get my hands on them i'll try to post them. i was told some of them are low brow humor! lol!! ;) hope you all have a wonderful day. off i go to sleepy land! oh! damn one more thing! ha! when i slept last night i left my bedroom door open a crack. {i don't normally do that, but my cat wanted to come it} i had a "dream" that i saw libby taking a dump in my living room! i remember thinking that it wasn't real because i have pee pee pads in the room and she is sooo good about using them. well.. i got up and low and behold! my pooch pooped in my parler! lol!! that was odd. it was like i was watching her do it, almost like an out of body experience. ok.. now i need to have an inner bed experience! goodnight boys and ghouls! ((((hugs)))))~ alysia
hi guys! it's almost 1 am and i'm wide awake! lol! so i have a question. now, i'm not looking for compliments here... but, why do people stare at me?! i get it a lot! although i love the gothic or even punk rock looks i don't dress that way. the pics that you see of me is.. well.. me! i don't' dress out there i don't have horns sticking out of my head! {not that i know of anyway!} i'm not even a loud person! i'm not a wallflower by far, but i'm not in your face either! point being, i don't draw attention to me.. purposely anyway! this thought came about today as i was on my walk. as i was crossing the street i got honked at by some dudes in a truck!! i looked half expecting to see someone i knew.. but nope! they were doing the cat call kinda thing! i get that a lot to when on walks! i also get rubber neckers.... from both male and females! i don't think it's joking either. not like hey, lets honk at that girl! hahaha! no i get it to often for it to be that... even the boy of my dreams mr. tattoo man apparently stares at me! {or so i've been told by my mom and friends!... alright i did catch him once!! *giggles* it was awesome!} while in school i used to get stared at by boys alll the damn time! i would feel it and look up at them then look down then look back up again and they would still be staring! wtf?! i don't get it!!! i've talked to erin and my mom about this before. i get very frustrated because my mom will want to point something out about a person.. like maybe she likes someone's hair or something. she would've been staring at the woman for a while then tell me.. the second i look up she will turn around and see me looking! is it like the, "i loosened the ketchup lid" kinda thing?! i just don't get it!! you know, it's impossible for me to do anything secretive! i rarely ever did growing up cause i ALWAYS got caught!! anyway. i just wanted to put that out there. i have been living with this my whole life! i thought if anyone would have some great insight it would be my witchy friends. :D maybe it's my aura. it's electric! lol!
and p.s. i haven't had many bfs so it can't be a beauty thing! i really don't have boys knocking down my door! believe me, i don't! i know that i'm cute.. just not sure if they've caught on yet. you know, boys in california are a bit slower than other states! ;) (((hugs)))~ alysia
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