it's soooo cold!! it's 50 degrees in my sleepy little town and it soooo fogy! i know that for most of you 50 is nothing! but it is totally freezing balls for this Californian! lol!
burrrrrrrr!!!!!
so on monday night i had a wonderful night! i sat by my little fire bowl and work some magic! this was the first spell that i have done in a while! and i totally didn't cast a circle, didn't call in any deities.. but the fire was blaring and i felt the presence of brighid! everything was just right, so i worked a little spell on the spot! i wrote what i wanted to say down on a sheet of paper then i said my thing 3 times and then threw the paper into the fire! i also burned some jezebel root. i see this as a root that is empowering to women! well that's what i used it for anyway! lol! i was naturally drawn to the root cause jezebel is my cat's name! and i just kinda held it and tried to see what it made me feel. so once the spell was complete i was able to sit and enjoy the fire with my babies! here's some shots of us chillin' by the fire!
and then i capped off the night with watching pushing daisies!! i sooooo love that show!! anyone watch it!? it is sooo good!! i'll admit, i love the pie maker
well... i also wanted to thank you all soooo much for your love the other day!!! wow that was powerful!! i have NEVER experienced anything like that before! for most of the day my hand felt like as if someone was holding it! it was kinda tingly and was very warm! the other hand was cold! i really did feel like everything was going to be ok! and it is! i promise..next time the crone takes over the moon i shall remember the love that was shared and i will not parish in the pit of despair! thanx again guys!!!! you rock!!!! give yourselves a round of applause!!!!
yesterday was a very interesting day! as my friend and i were driving home from the mall we both noticed how interesting the sun looked. it was just starting to go down and we had had a very cloudy day, so there was a lot of reds and oranges in the sky. the sun itself was bright red! i had the feeling that something bad was in the air... then later that night we were coming back from dinner... we were driving down a small not so well lit road and i saw a very tall man with pointed ears standing at the corner!!! he was as tall as the walk/don't walk sign!!!! it made me do a double take! when i looked back i didn't see him!! as my heart began to raise i looked over at my friend and said i just saw a man standing at the corner!!! she just looked at me as her eyes got big and she began to get kinda pale... then she said, "i saw him to". when we realized that we both saw the same thing we began to freak out!! i have seen things and felt things before..... but this, was not a good thing!!! she felt the same way! when she dropped me off at my house i decided to do a small protection ritual. i stood in the center of my home and called the quarters.. i told them that i needed them! then i called in all of my deities and relatives whom have passed. as i started to do my thing, i saw a flicker of something near my door!!! i just was going to do the spell because i wanted to be safe, but i hadn't realized he had come into my home!!!! i then walked over to my window opened it and said, "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!" i had my ritual broom in my hands and began to sweep him out! i wasn't sweeping very hard, but i noticed my stained glass sun was shaking like something went right by it!!!! so i felt like my new god/friend bran the blessed wanted to "deal" with him! so i asked him to please take him far far away from me!! to please keep him away from friends, family, and loved ones. i then stood there for a while and felt the energy in my house go from intense to calm and playful! my dogs suddenly began to run and play all over my house! {they had been eerily quite this whole time!} then i turned to my beloved goddess brighid and asked for her to stay with us tonight and keep us safe! i then felt the soothing warmth of a hug and all of my fears and nerves melted away!!
i slept very well last night!! my house and animals were at peace! i believe that this "dude" has been visiting me for a little while now... i have had my bedroom door open while i was sleeping and i once woke up to the feeling of complete dread and fear!!! it was soo overwhelming that i didn't want to move, for i feared what i would see if i sat up in bed!!! i just protected myself and said a small prayer to brighid asking her for protection.
hello everyone! i am in need of some guidance of the witchy kind! it seems that every time the moon's energy begins to wain so do i... it is something that is hard for me to describe, but to put it simply -i turn into eeyore! my life is full of "oh bothers"!
i also begin to see crows EVERYWHERE!! their cawing is very soothing to me... don't know why, but it has always been comforting to me. soooo i know of a god and goddess who are associated with crows and ravens, you know who i am talking about! lol! non other than the morggan and bran the blessed. i have tried to open myself to them but i think that something inside of me fears what lurks in the shadows of my mind!!
soooo i could really use some help here! i know it is a journey i must take alone, but i would love some cookie crumbs that i could follow! ;) i know what i do that is bad, or wrong... such as procrastination and spending money like i have it!! however, am i meant to see these things and fix them or am i supposed to see them and just know that that is just who i am?? oooorrr am i supposed to see something way more sinister and dark??? and if i see it, do i accept it? or do i try to change it?
any help i can get on the subject would be greatly appreciated!!! you see i am very close to my light side, and need to see and know my dark side! maybe it because i am a libra and am always in need of balance! who knows!! i just know that i am fed up with this eeoyre stuff!!! lol!!
thank you all!! and my the darkness be merciful!!!
well, well, well.... tomorrow's the big day!! my 27th birthday!!! i am so excited!! i am going to disney land tomorrow! :D and then i will be celebrating with my family in san diego at the hard rock cafe on saturday!!! what will i be wishing for when i blow out my b-day candles you ask????
i had all 3 chi's on my lap!!! lol! 
