BWWWAAHHH HAAAHAAAAHHHAA HAA!!! i just heard this song on the radio.. i forgot how funny it is. it is so classic because it wasn't ment to be funny. those are the best kind! lol! the best part is when she says, *i honestly do*.

hey, i just realized that i used to have her haircut. well look at that. i had a video vixen hairstyle... i think it's a million times better then this one:

so i had the worst night last night! my lil rosie got really sick. her gums were very pale and she was puking up anything that she took down. :( i usually don't worry much when it's my dalmatian, he's a big boy. but rosie is so small. she wouldn't eat and stop drinking for a while. oh, and i was trying to stay up late to keep an eye on her but someone decided i need to go to sleep early-ish. at about 11:50 the power went out! i tried to sleep, but no power means no a/c or fan! so i was hot! then at about midnight the power came back on. yay! tttthhheennn i turned off the lights off and snuggled in to sleep. rosie likes to sleep on my pillow above my head. i have two pillows, and she sleeps on the one that i don't have my head on... anyway! lol! i guess in sickly state she decided to snuggle up there. well... then her body took over and she puked over the side of the pillow!! and yes, it got on me! and the best part... i didn't have any clean sheets! ha! i thought i did, but turns out i did a crapo job of washing a set and they smelled. so i had to put the sheet down on the mattress and use my warm top blanket as my sheet! oh, but i did have one pillow case.. that is flannel!!! so i was HOT!!! i tossed and turned most of the night, then i finally fell asleep. but i had to get up around 6am! ugh! and i was worried all night about rosie. then i was worried about her all day while i was working. she didn't want to eat this morning, and she was still puking up any thing {water} that she took down. but then i came home after a llllooonnggg day to see her shinning face! she was a million times better! :D i fed her and she happily ate her dinner. *sigh* thank the goddess! i kept having morbid images of finding her dead when i got home. driving home with a stomach full of knots, mind racing... i glanced over at a crows feather that i had found awhile back. and a sense of total calm came over me. my vision did this weird *click* kinda thing. it's the kinda thing that it does when i get info that is from *someone else*. the best that i can describe it is like when you are getting your eyes tested and they have all of those lenses that you look through and they say :which is better? number one, number two:... so my eyes did that and i *thought* :she's fine. she's happy and healthy. no need to worry:. it was like i *knew* it to be true. and sure enough, she was totally fine! i also *knew* that the power would go out. kinda like i *knew* the earthquake was going to happen. my mind is getting sharper, i can feel it! but i'm thinking that rosie either ate a bee or a spider {black widow} or she was stung or bit. she has a milky film coming from her eyes, and i thought her throat felt swollen. but i'm just happy she's ok. i was really concerned there.

so two last things then i'm outtie! numero uno: while working today i did something pretty cool. i switched my thinking. and i ended up having a great day! i had a very tight schedule today. clients that practically overlapped. whenever that happens i get very frazzled. i think about how i can't do it, how my clients will be sooo pissed, and about how i won't be able to take my time and groom each dog properly. well, i flipped it. i thought, i've got plenty of time, if i am late no one will mind, and i will do a great job and they will be happy. i was about a half hour late to each client and everyone of them didn't care. they didn't even mention it! i felt calm and happy. i never cursed out my fellow drivers {oh boy do i get all california driver when i am in a rush! lol} and i never got mad if the light turned red. my only true concern was rosie. but i tried to not let it effect my day. and it worked! **it also helps that i made $485 today!! whoooohhhoo!!** and numero...umm... two-oh. lol! i went for a wonderful walk tonight. it was soo beautiful out! the moon was out and the weather was perfect! it was neat cause we have some clouds and so the moon looked all hazy, like as if someone smudged it with their thumb. :) i've decided i need to take a walk everyday. i need the connection with the earth. even though i am outside a lot cause of my job, i need to take time to think, dream, and connect. yesterday i ended up casting a spell while walking! it was marvelous! i found 8 crows feathers and so as i was holding them i felt the need to do something for justin. and i'm not sure if i *saw* what is going to happen, or if i was manifesting what *should* happen. i saw him very strong and powerful. i saw his step mom with a gag around her mouth and her arms tied up. justin towered over her and she was looking down, as if she was submitting. i never felt anger from him. only... well.. power i guess. perhaps a dash of knowledge too. i also *saw* my uncle with sunglasses on. then he took them off and put on seeing glasses and he looked at her. so i think that, perhaps, justin won't let her actions dictate his life. she doesn't phase him. and my uncle will finally see clear what is going on. so ya, not sure if i did that, or i saw that! lol! but my eyes did do that click thing again. we shall see. only time will tell. :) that enough gibberish out of me! wow.. i can't believe i just spelled that right. who would've thought i could spell gibberish properly! ok, off to sleepy land... nighty night bats and ghouls,

alysia

ahhhh... life.... full of obstacles, fear, heartbreak, and most importantly... love, peace, and beauty!! *sigh* as i said last night, a sense of full awareness of self has washed over me. it's like my prior marriage to  myself has finally sunk in! {**for my newer friends: i decided to marry myself a few months back. i wear a ring on my right hand as a reminder that i am betrothed to me! i tend to think of others WAY more then myself. i am beyond giving. i would go starving for someone, who merely wanted more food. but that's in the past. oh, i also had a funeral for my old self. yes. i'm crazy, i know! lol!} for a while now i have been dancing the same dance. a waltz of worry and sadness. a blinding dance that renders the very senses useless! i was back to just going through the motions. i was here, but not really. i had moments of life. moments of true joy. but only moments. it hit me one day, that i really really don't want to live my life dancing this waltz. i don't want to be constantly worried about money, other people, and the unavoidable! sh*t happens! i would have lucid moments where i would see the *light*. i would say, hey i have a beautiful home, wonderful dogs, family life could be better.. but really, who's couldn't! lol! and i have my own business! hello, that's pretty damn cool! lol! those would be my moments of clarity, but sadly only moments. then i would fall back into, as poe puts it, melancholy.  i began to realize that i was living my life for others. that yes, i want to help, i want to heal, i want to be there for people.. i truly care! i just was going at it the wrong way! i began to see a pattern emerging in regards to my friends. they all expected me to give, give, give... and they need not barely give me a smile in return. selfish patterns began to show. i was drained, sad, and hurt. this realization came in conjunction to my cousin getting injured. i was even doing this *giving* thing magically. when i first found out about justin i would send energy galore.  when i started to hate life and had no energy of my own i realized something was wrong. cererbus pointed out that i need to take the energy from the universe not from myself! *duh* lol! this, i had realized applied to my life also...

so what to do with all of this??? learn, change somethings, and grow. :)  what i've began to do is this: i am studying healing. i just happened upon a great book at the store. it was in the sale rack. only $3.99. i feel that it was a sign from brighid and bran. they are saying that i need to properly learn how to help people. i don't think i will ever be a professional, but i think that it is so strong in me that i need to learn how to use it properly. i have also noticed that my tarot skills have strengthened since this *shift* occurred in myself. i feel like i can see clearer. i have even been able to see auras. kinda trippy really! i have also noticed this effect on animals. they like me even more now! kinda cool. ;) works wonders for my profession! lol! i also have been taking more me time out of my schedule.  and i have decided to let my friends just be. they are who they are, however.. i am not who i used to be. i will no longer drop everything to go do something with them. one thing that has upset me and really put this in motion is the way one of my friends in particular has no regard for my time at all. just yesterday i told her i wanted to go to the bookstore. i also said it would be cool to go see the dark night. but most importantly i wanted to go to the bookstore. {i needed another christopher moore book! lol!} she had to talk to some people before she could let me know for sure. so i said that i really wanted to go to the store, so why don't i just head out there now. then we can meet up later. she thought that was a smashing idea. well, she called me shortly after and said she may be able to go to the b.s. with me and that she would call me right back. i waited. called clients. watched the simpsons. so that would be about 45 mins gone by. oh, and not to mention the fact that i was STARVING!! so i texted her with *should i go to the bookstore? should i eat?*. she responded saying that she got into a huge argument with her mom and that she no longer wanted to eat or do anything. that she was way to upset! so, not only did she make me wait, but she didn't text me or anything to let me know this. I had to ask HER!  and really, did she have to get in a brew-ha-ha with her mom right then and there. couldn't she say, "i am going out with my friend. we can continue this later." i don't fight with people, so i don't know the *proper* etiquette for this situation. but i would think that your starving friend who wants food and book right now, really shouldn't be put on the back burner while you have *words* with the woman who birthed you!  so i resigned to take care of me.  that i will no longer let her dictate what my day will encompass! the same goes for all friends, because she isn't the only one i've got who needs to soak in a bottle of head and shoulders!! {get it?? they are flakes! ;) lol!}  i think i have been repeatedly pushed to a life of self reliance. if that is the path i must take, then so be it. i accept with an open heart. perhaps one day i will have someone in my life who will change my mind about all of this... but for now, i live my life for me! so you see, this works with the healing thing too. i was giving myself in that too. so once i learn the proper way to help i will no longer be feeling drained and used. i hold on to hope that me settling into myself will catapult me in the direction of my soul mate. only time will tell.... i have to say though, that senior tattoo has been sending me signals lately! lol! i keep seeing his first and last name in random places! i hear songs that remind me of him. i will have clear image of him out of the blue. *sigh* time... it will tell.

alright kids! off i go to eat, drink, and check in on ya! ooo and i need to do my morning yoga and divine love-fest!  good think i don't work until 2!! lol! ((((hugs)))) ~alysia~

:D how are you all doing on this fine summer day?? fab i hope! ;) just took the mustang into the mechanic.. *crosses fingers* i hope it doesn't cost a fortune! i forgot how fun it is to drive that beast. lol! i hope it is in my financial grasp to fix it. :) i have a great feeling it will be. i am in such a great mood today! i am sooo connected to animals it's kinda creepy.. kinda like this:

it's true. i groomed 2 dogs. one terrier mix who already loves me. and then a chow who.. well... is a chow! lol! he is one of the -no strike that one the best chow i've ever groomed. he is very well behaved. but he is still a animal who demands respect. however, today he was lil butter ball! i bent over to tell him he was all done. i went to rub his chest, so i was looking him in the eyes, and he went to town licking my face!! it was sooo cute! i laughed and he did more. it was so cute! and then while i was walking home from the mechanic i saw a squirrel on the grass right by where i was gonna walk. i slowed down and he looked at me. then he scampered up a tree and stopped. he stared. but didn't move. i was really close to him. and he didn't care! lol! i bet he would've let me pet him if i wanted. i could see his lil nut brain thinking "i wonder if she has any food." lol   

so i hit up michael's. :D i got some halloween goodies already. lol! i am so ready for fall! i found a tin sign that says spooky trails to you. i so had to get it cause happy trails to you was one of my grandma's things. it is on her tombstone. so it was perfect. a little bit of her, a little bit of me. :) they also had a cute tree sign that has a hook on it. i think it will be a perfect home for my keys. now i think i may just go to the book store and see what kind of trouble i can get into. ;) i won't be tooo bad. promises. :D i am falling back into my poe love. i mean i never really fell out.. just got distracted. but i want more info on him. and some more of his lesser known poem/tales. i've been listening to my cds over and over while i groom. i swear, i've almost got the raven down! lol! i'm thinking it shall be a new goal of mine to read all of his works. shouldn't be to hard. *thank the gods he didn't write novels!*  i also am feeling super creative. i need to write. i know it. it is welling up in me. it's about to spill over.

one last thing before i rush out the door into the sweltering heat of a southern california summer.. do you guys think we can cause karma??? sssshhhhh! don't blurt out a yes until i explain what i mean! slloooww down! lol!! i was pondering today weather or not we can cause a karma-like effect in our lives. that our guilt for some of our lesser shinning moments can cause us to *accept* that we deserve whatever poo gets flung on us. for instance: my dear friend has hit a speed bump in her life... well i wouldn't call it a speed bump... more like a giant hill that came out of nowhere!! it seems to have skipped right over raining to a hurricane force storm of sh*tty luck. every thing's going wrong. except some really great things are going right that are helping keep her, somewhat, sane at this time.  she keeps saying it's karma. that she deserves it all. ok, eeorye, sllooww down. what if it's not quite that simple!? here's a short description of what she *did* that, she thinks, is the reason for this karmic bitch slap...in the brackets i will place the truth. what is real that she doesn't see.  *she broke up with her {extremely mentally abusive, controlling, psycho} boyfriend. who had a little boy. who she thinks she let down. {not to sound cold. but not her son. she shouldn't suffer for him! besides, the dad's really good to him. not abusive at all} then she turned around and decided to date a dude who works with her. {he is the first boy who she has ever had the hots for who felt the same way.} bad part. her manager who is her friend was interested in him too. {she is something like 8 years older than him and is a self proclaimed man eater. not the best person to let date a dude who you like!} so she dated him behind her back and oh-but-of-coarse she found out. so my friend thinks that she deserves all the bad that has waltzed into her life. like she went to some karmic priest who said you must suffer.. a lot... in order to repent and pay back all the bad you have done. but here's the thing. i really don't see a whole lot of bad in what she did. what i'm thinking is the case here is that she felt so guilty for what, she perceived,  as bad stuff that she did, that she is welcoming -with open arms- the bad. that she is subconsciously sabotaging her life. i began to wonder if that is really what a lot of us do. that we all have this notion in our head that we must be reprimanded for  our bad actions. that it is soo strong in us that we will in turn cause them to happen! i mean, as cerberus always says, like attracts like. so if you feel bad for something you did {which may have not really been such a bad thing!} you will open yourself up for a sh*t storm! what do you guys think?? personally i think it makes a lot of sense. so next time don't jump to blame karma. i think she is a bit tired of being called a bitch. :) this is what she told me to say:

ha!! luv you all! hope you guys have a fantastic weekend. i will. i've got a concert to attend on sunday. and i also get to see my sis and my niece. :D yay!! here's who i'm seeing:

and surprisingly enough this is who is supposed to be the opening band:

good times will be had by all!!! :D ((((hugs)))) and full moon luv! ~&hearts~ alysia

he he, joe showed me that pic! i love it!! lol!! so i was a bbbbbaaaaaddddd girl yesterday! but it was sooooo fun! lol! i went shopping! EEK!! it was great!! i am not trying to say that i want to do it everyday.. no no no no! but it was a nice change of pace. and i picked up some super cute stuff! i got an adorable granola bag! ha ha! it is perfect for the hippie on the go! lol!! some hippie flippy flops. *a must for socal!* a cute hat. complete with a peace sign on it! and a nice green shirt. i went out with one friend, then another called and we all ended up shopping together. it was soo much fun! we ate a nice lunch at johnny rockets. the egg salad is to die for! sat on the patio and enjoyed. it was just wonderful! a nice easy going day. like i said a nice change of pace!

still no news on my cousin. but he should be flying in to the u.s. either today or tomorrow. :) and business is picking up! i am so happy! i am getting new clients left and right! {that's why i don't feel to horrible about my shopping excursion! i also am going to be getting a lot of money for dog sitting. that's a nice bonus!} today i've got 7 dogs to groom! ah! i better get to my yoga! lol! hope you all have a wonderful day! and i hope your weekend was awesome!

(((hugs)))~ alysia

hey guys! :) i am in such a lazy mood! i don't want to do anything! grrr i hate when this happens! so i decided to let it be for a little while, then i'm gonna clean my house. it i such a pigsty in here! lol! my shih tzu maddie needs a bath too.. hmm.. maybe, just maybe, i might groom my own dog! lol! no news on justin. i'm thinking no news is good new. :) i can't thank you all enough for your help with this. you all really have made all the difference in the world! and yes, i want to bind my wicked step aunt! {is that even possible? cans someone be a step aunt? lol!} so bring it! what do you all suggest?! i think now would be the good time, right? with the waning of the moon. i think that's a good time. unless i want to work something on my uncle to see what she is doing. use the light of the full moon or even the waxing moon to shine on her dumb ass! so with some help from cerberus, i have now seen that i've been going about this healing stuff all wrong! i've been using my own energy! bad witch! *smacks hand* bad! i was getting really irritable and negative. he said i should be using universal energy. *smacks head* duh! makes so much sense! so i have been doing that. i am still burring a tea light for him every night, but i added on for me. i am asking for my energy to be repaired. i still feel low. it's really weird. i just don't quite feel like me. but i am much better then i was! so it's coming back. but omg!!! i had the coolest thing happen the other day! i have told you all about bran the blessed right? well, he may just have to be my god of choice! lol! i have been devoting myself to brighid everyday. it is so wonderful, but now i think bran may be my dude. i have felt such a connection to him since all this happened with justin. like i said, the day of i felt like every time i saw a crow i be comforted. well, the other day i went for a little walk. {i hadn't done that in soooo long! i was way overdue!} i saw a murder of crows fly over head. they were going to their gathering spot for the evening. i decided to follow. well.. i ended up going by a house that i've never walked by before, {and probably never would have if it wasn't for the beautiful group of my dark friends!} i found about 5 crow feathers at one house! they were all in good shape and just beautiful! i then continued to walk down my normal path and i found more feathers! i have never seen feathers in this area before! and some of them i wouldn't have seen if it wasn't for a kitty that wanted my attention real bad! lol! she would walk with me and then cut me off and *fall* down in front of me. it was really cute! in the end i found 10 feathers! 5 and 10 are my lucky numbers! crazy huh?! and as i walked with them i could feel the energy coming off of them. it was really cool! so i began to think about my magical name... i don't really care for it! lol! i do love tigers and lilys.. but one day i looked up at it on my site and i saw tiger beat. remember that teenage magazine?!!? lol! i felt like i am no long a tigerlily kinda gal. i needed something that fit better. i wonder if we can out grow such things. i think so. we change, evolve. not everything is always the same. anyway! i decided to come up with something a little more me. i wanted to use a different language. i thought what better for a celtic witch then gaelic?!!!!? so the *name* crow's heart came to my mind. after some research i figured out that bran means crow! so i came up with bran's chroi. i looked at some translations, and it appears that gaelic is pretty literal. like if you say i want tea it will be the same. {different words of coarse! lol!} unlike french where the words would be in different spots! lol! so chroi is heart. so it can be crow's heart or bran's heart. :) i like it. i think it works. i'm gonna try it for a while. see what i think. how do you all like it? 

so yesterday i was with a friend and her friend. {just met the girl for the first time} and i am realizing more and more that i really am sick an tired of how people pick each other apart! i am so sick and tired of comparisons, i could just spit!! i love me. i totally do! i think i am great. lol! i know *get off your pedastool {sp?} alysia!* lol! but i feel that i can say that cause i am not comparing myself to anyone! i don't think i am better than a*n*y*one! call me a libra, but i believe in equality! ha! this girl who i met was only 18 and she was going on and on and on about how icky other people are.. mainly girls who were ex's of her bf. some of her *reasons* why these girls were nasty where things that i liked and that were me.. things she so lovingly deemed *granola*! i will be the first to admit i am a *granola* lol! i like that about me. i am down to earth. i like *granolas* they are great people! this girl is all about being fake. the bigger the boobs the better. the more expensive the car  the better! the more sh*t you can talk about someone the better! ugh! i just hate it! i used to feel like i suck cause i wasn't what she was. *shivers* i prey i never am who she is! what a shallow nasty life to lead. i would rather play in the dirt with my granolas then get a pedicure with her any day! lol! ok, that's enough. i could go on and on! but i won't!

hope you all have a wonderful weekend! i'm gonna do some check ups tonight. wanna make sure my friends are good. :) i've gotta get to cleaning or else i'll never do it! lol!   ((((hugs))))~ alysia aka bran's chroi ;)