i just found out that i owe over $3,000 in taxes from last year. it looks like i will have to send whatever money i can tomorrow and then they will bill me in about 30 days. i then have to see what i can do about a payment plan. i also owe my accountant $300 for his work, and he wants me to begin to pay for this years taxes now. so how will that all work if i have $300 to my name? i am kinda numb right now. i am walking a thin line of *everything will work out. it always does.* and *OH MY F*CKING GOD!! WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO!?? HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE THIS WORK!? I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS! WHY DO I HAVE TO PAY TAXES?! F**K!!!!* the only good news out of all of this, is that it was originally going to be 5000. but i guess cause i work from home i get to deduct home expenses. so that shaved 2000 off the original tag. i'm pretty sure i have to sell my car. i really don't see any other way to get that kinda money. i know that i can make payments, but if i sell the mustang i can make close to $5000. that will clear up a lot of my worries. so buh bye car of my dreams. i guess i have to focus on other dreams now.

ok, so i'm going to go work on manifesting some more work. the only problem with making more money is that the fu*king country is going to tax the hell out of it. i really hate taxes. how is a person supposed to make any money with this kinda crap. i mean really!? *walks off chanting... i will be ok. i will have the money. all is spectacular in my world.*