ok.. so apparently i need to say this today. i have a few mins before i go fight people at michaels.... they are having a 4 hour sale!! eeeeaaakkkk!!! lol!! they already have my favorite big ass glass candles for $1.50 which if you aren't counting is 60% off of the normal $4.99!! and so you get an extra 25% off your whole purchase.. sssoooo i'm gonna stock up on those bad boys!!! i use them instead of lights at night. saves a lot on electricity. :D ok.. where was i? oh yes.. why we need to be our own people..

so today i had to make a quick run to nordstrom. for those who may not know.. it's a ritzy snotty store where everything is wwwwaayyy over priced and the people who work there treat you like a something that came out of a dogs arse that they stepped on on their way to starbucks.. if you know what i'm sezzin! :D i have literally seen a crystal bracelet that was made on a stretchy string for $80!!! my mom just about died cause she makes better things that are wayyyy less! ha!! anyway... i am wearing a long *broomstick* skirt with a hurley tee shirt on. my hair.. well, i barley dried it but yes i did wash it!! lol!! annnnd i don't have a speck of makeup on. however, i think i look like a goddess!! :D i really do i feel beautiful today. i needed to go in there to make a payment on my friends card. {she loaned it to me when my rv broke down and i didn't have the $800 in cash to pay for it. great friend huh?!} i usually avoid this store like the plague! lol! but i had to go. so i walked by all the people who worked there without one of them stopping me to ask if i needed help or if i wanted to sample some rank perfume. i found a girl at a counter who was just finishing a transaction so i could sneak in right behind and get the fudge out! the girl glanced up at me and didn't even smile. i gave her my best alysia smile. full of cheese and love! ;) {which go nicely together if you ask me!} she looked down. then i said, "hello" she says, "hi". then the phone rings. she didn't even say excuse me! she just grabbed it. she talked on the phone while she processed my payment. never looked at me. just kept talking. she got off and then the phone rang again before she finished me up. grabbed it and finished the transaction and her important phone conversation. handed me my receipt and the card. looked back to see a person who she was trying to sell some $1000 bag and then didn't even say thank you or good bye or **** off you scummy piece of dog s**t! she said in her best fake happy nice time voice "hi!! how are you!! so you are back!!" and proceeded to walk off. lol!! f**k that b**ch!! ha!! i thought it was sooo funny! i walked out into the mall and was bugged by all the kiosk people, "ma'am, would  you like to try some lotion? hi would you like to try our new shear makeup. makes you look 10 years younger?!" so apparently i only looked like a tool in nordstrom. whatever! and you know what else?!! i was getting smiles and men checking me out the whole time! and not in the snotty "what is she waring" kinda look. no it was a "how  you doin" look. :) about 2 years ago i would've been sad.. you know it probably wouldn't have even happened cause i would've dressed up to go pay a bill! lol!! i laugh now cause i see how truly dumb that is! i feel sad for these people who think that what the look like on the outside makes them a better person. it's ridiculous! yesterday i helped my friend move... her sort of ex helped. all she could say was how much she hated what he was wearing and that his shoes {which i liked!!} were an embarrassment to society!! i turned to her and said.. "HE WAS DRESSED TO MOVE YOU!! WHAT DID YOU EXPECT HIM TO WEAR!? A SUIT!!!!" lol! what's wrong with people! as i was helping her put her unpack i saw so many things that i've never owned. like a kitchenaid mixer. a oster blender. a smoothy machine. all name brand all things. *sigh* i don't get it. i don't care about all that crap. i don't think it's important. i don't even care if someone has a *dorky* habit or hobby! so much judging in this world. so i say f**k it! i'm gonna be me. cause really being what everyone else wants me to be is very tiring. because most people will still say that i'm too, fat, brunette, short, loud, stupid, horribly dressed, or just to playin gorgeous!! :D so i don't care anymore! i can truly say that after the nordstrom fiasco! i really don't care. that chic is setting herself up for a shallow boring existence! i, on the other hand, am not. i live my life to the fullest. and am here to live, love, and laugh! ok. that's enough. lol!! love who you are, and be who you are. even if you have a secret obsession with gummy bears! that's ok. you know i think that it's 90% what you put out there! if you say.. with a pensive, whiny, voice... asking...not really stating.. "i love gummy bears???" that is just asking for a laugh! but if you say it with confidence, and maybe even a smirk... "i love gummy bears." sounds better don't you think? ;) i've gotten weird looks when i say that i LOVE poe. oooh the best one is when i say i have 5 dogs!! hahahah!! i get some great responses from that one! had a client say.. "oh that's why  you don't have kids." ha!! that's my favorite. but i've found that if i just say it like it's a fact, less people look at me like i have a second head growing out of my neck. ok. that's enough. i'm really done now! off to get some great deals!! (((hugs))) and luv to you all. you unique individuals you! so fess up! who loves gummy bears!!!???