i suppose that once you open your self up to the world of healing of self and others, you tend to get *ideas* that seem to come out of nowhere! but i'm sure that my guides/god{dess} are giving them to me. :) actually, the book that i am reading right now says that we all know these things, we just hold them back or forget about them. we just simply need to turn on a light inside and blamo! there you are. ;)

what the heck am i rambling on about you ask yourself... why doesn't she just get to the damn point you implore! lol! alright!! so last night something hummed inside me like an invisible hand hit my inner guitar strings.... i had a good night, i met some friends at a local bar, which is suddenly becoming a haunt of ours! i had realized a while ago that i no longer wanted to drink to excess. i didn't even want to drink caffeine to much! i realized that any substance like that would shift my awareness. i, about 3 months ago, began down the path of intuition. i began to open myself up to the world around me. i found it really hard to pay attention to what was being said when i was hopped up on caffeine! lol! same applies to drinking. so, i decided to meet with my friends and maybe have one small beer. or ask if i could have some tea! i did have a beer. and i did have a wonderful night! full of laughs and good times. i am realizing more and more that i don't need booze in my system to have a rockin good time! {don't worry guys, i am no lush, nor have i ever been. just tired of paying so much to feel sooo bad the next morning! lol!!}  but my friend did say somethings that offended me. she can sometimes pluck my inner guitar to the point of annoyance! she was drunk, but she would've said such things if she wasn't. being around her is like playing a game of double dutch jump rope!  you have to sit and wait for the perfect time to jump in. choosing your words wisely, and always remembering to keep moving! soooo...  normally i would go home after a night with her royal heinous of demented rope jumping and stew. i would be up for a lot of the night and think about how cruel she was, or what she said that really hurt. then last night i stumbled upon a way to heal myself. i didn't sit there and do an evil spell on her! ha! no matter how fun that would've been! ;) nor did i sit there and justify her actions. i didn't try to figure out why she does what she does. nope! it's on her. if that's the way she wants to be then that's her path... no what i did was this; i closed my eyes and saw myself in a beautiful field. i saw myself sitting in a meadow of very tall grass on a beautiful day. then i recalled all the things she said that upset me. i let them well up inside until i could feel the dark negative energy pulsing through myself. then i *saw* it bubble up into a small sphere in my hand. then i blew it away. i *watched* it float away and let the universe take it. i then sat and centered myself. enjoyed the beauty of the day and relaxed. :) i woke up with such a happy heart this morning! i also burnt a tea light for myself last night. i asked to be cleansed of negativity. so i can be open to the positive beauty of the world. and i have to say, it worked! i'm not gonna sit here and tell you that i have *forgiven* or *forgotten* what she said or did, however, i feel relieved of it. and i don't feel the need to hang on to that negative energy anymore! i'm thinking this will be a practice that i shall do every night. we all know that we get smacked every single day with horrible energy, especially you empaths out there! so why not get rid of them before you go to bed. i see it like a psychic shower before you sleep. give it a try, i bet you will have a better nights sleep. i sure did!

**and a side note about this friend** she is a second generation psychic vampire. lol! her mother is very very negative, so she has that within her too. she has overcome many obstacles in her life, she has risen above many of the trappings of her mother.. however, she can be quite synicle {sp?} and hateful. however. it isn't all the time, and she has done some wonderful things for me. and helped me out many times. but i am now seeing that her energy is dark and hurt. that it can rub off on me. so i see the need to cleanse myself after seeing her.  i don't know if you all remember the dark man, but every time i've seen him it's been with her. i think it's a manifestation of her negativity. so my point here is that i keep her at arms distance and that i try to think of her as my fun time friend. ;) she has her own battles to fight. i learned my lesson about trying to help her. she will deal with it in her own time. so for now, she's my fun time buddy. :D

hope you all have a day full of wonder and peace! (((hugs)))~ alysia