hey guys! :) i am in such a lazy mood! i don't want to do anything! grrr i hate when this happens! so i decided to let it be for a little while, then i'm gonna clean my house. it i such a pigsty in here! lol! my shih tzu maddie needs a bath too.. hmm.. maybe, just maybe, i might groom my own dog! lol! no news on justin. i'm thinking no news is good new. :) i can't thank you all enough for your help with this. you all really have made all the difference in the world! and yes, i want to bind my wicked step aunt! {is that even possible? cans someone be a step aunt? lol!} so bring it! what do you all suggest?! i think now would be the good time, right? with the waning of the moon. i think that's a good time. unless i want to work something on my uncle to see what she is doing. use the light of the full moon or even the waxing moon to shine on her dumb ass! so with some help from cerberus, i have now seen that i've been going about this healing stuff all wrong! i've been using my own energy! bad witch! *smacks hand* bad! i was getting really irritable and negative. he said i should be using universal energy. *smacks head* duh! makes so much sense! so i have been doing that. i am still burring a tea light for him every night, but i added on for me. i am asking for my energy to be repaired. i still feel low. it's really weird. i just don't quite feel like me. but i am much better then i was! so it's coming back. but omg!!! i had the coolest thing happen the other day! i have told you all about bran the blessed right? well, he may just have to be my god of choice! lol! i have been devoting myself to brighid everyday. it is so wonderful, but now i think bran may be my dude. i have felt such a connection to him since all this happened with justin. like i said, the day of i felt like every time i saw a crow i be comforted. well, the other day i went for a little walk. {i hadn't done that in soooo long! i was way overdue!} i saw a murder of crows fly over head. they were going to their gathering spot for the evening. i decided to follow. well.. i ended up going by a house that i've never walked by before, {and probably never would have if it wasn't for the beautiful group of my dark friends!} i found about 5 crow feathers at one house! they were all in good shape and just beautiful! i then continued to walk down my normal path and i found more feathers! i have never seen feathers in this area before! and some of them i wouldn't have seen if it wasn't for a kitty that wanted my attention real bad! lol! she would walk with me and then cut me off and *fall* down in front of me. it was really cute! in the end i found 10 feathers! 5 and 10 are my lucky numbers! crazy huh?! and as i walked with them i could feel the energy coming off of them. it was really cool! so i began to think about my magical name... i don't really care for it! lol! i do love tigers and lilys.. but one day i looked up at it on my site and i saw tiger beat. remember that teenage magazine?!!? lol! i felt like i am no long a tigerlily kinda gal. i needed something that fit better. i wonder if we can out grow such things. i think so. we change, evolve. not everything is always the same. anyway! i decided to come up with something a little more me. i wanted to use a different language. i thought what better for a celtic witch then gaelic?!!!!? so the *name* crow's heart came to my mind. after some research i figured out that bran means crow! so i came up with bran's chroi. i looked at some translations, and it appears that gaelic is pretty literal. like if you say i want tea it will be the same. {different words of coarse! lol!} unlike french where the words would be in different spots! lol! so chroi is heart. so it can be crow's heart or bran's heart. :) i like it. i think it works. i'm gonna try it for a while. see what i think. how do you all like it? 

so yesterday i was with a friend and her friend. {just met the girl for the first time} and i am realizing more and more that i really am sick an tired of how people pick each other apart! i am so sick and tired of comparisons, i could just spit!! i love me. i totally do! i think i am great. lol! i know *get off your pedastool {sp?} alysia!* lol! but i feel that i can say that cause i am not comparing myself to anyone! i don't think i am better than a*n*y*one! call me a libra, but i believe in equality! ha! this girl who i met was only 18 and she was going on and on and on about how icky other people are.. mainly girls who were ex's of her bf. some of her *reasons* why these girls were nasty where things that i liked and that were me.. things she so lovingly deemed *granola*! i will be the first to admit i am a *granola* lol! i like that about me. i am down to earth. i like *granolas* they are great people! this girl is all about being fake. the bigger the boobs the better. the more expensive the car  the better! the more sh*t you can talk about someone the better! ugh! i just hate it! i used to feel like i suck cause i wasn't what she was. *shivers* i prey i never am who she is! what a shallow nasty life to lead. i would rather play in the dirt with my granolas then get a pedicure with her any day! lol! ok, that's enough. i could go on and on! but i won't!

hope you all have a wonderful weekend! i'm gonna do some check ups tonight. wanna make sure my friends are good. :) i've gotta get to cleaning or else i'll never do it! lol!   ((((hugs))))~ alysia aka bran's chroi ;)