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let me read to you a selection from my great grandfathers poetry... ::squeals!!!:: my aunt finally sent me his poems!! ahh! i'm so excited!! she sent them to me as a scanned image though. so i can't seem to figure out how to copy them to a document. i can't highlight the words then copy them so if you have any suggestions it would be greatly appreciated! :D i did copy my favorite one though. it's short so i just retyped it. here it is:

TIME

If I had but the time to do

The things I o’t to do

I’d prob’ly never ever do

The things I want to do!

                -J.M.F.

isn't that great!! he has other ones that much more deep and not so limericky! but this one is my favorite! :D  

so yesterday i had a bit of a smack in the face from the gods! lol! i was thinking on my favorite tattoo man and how i was so.. to use one of poe's favorite words.. melancholy over the whole thing. i was out on a walk and i looked over at a bird in the street. he was trying to get some food that was in the middle of the street. i said to him "you better get out of their you are gonna get hit by a car!" no sooner did i say that, then a car came speeding up! the bird frantically pecked at the morsel trying to get it up so he could fly away!! i gasped as he flew away! he was so close to getting hit! i wouldn't be surprised if  he got clipped a little. he almost hit me in his frantic escape. the thought occurred to me... let him go...  i began to get very sad. i thought that this was a sign that i need to let him go, there were other *peaces of food* in the world. and the thought of him was just dragging me down. :(  so melancholy over took me again. but this morning i realized something. i asked brighid to help me through this. to show me what that scene was supposed to mean to me. i pulled a few cards. i won't boar you with what they were. lol! but it became very clear to me. i now see that i need to understand that it is a path that i must follow. are paths are meant to cross... i need to be patient. because it is dragging me down! i am focusing on that sooo much that it is causing me to be sad. i see friends who have bfs and i get very very sad. i thought i was over the *i want what she has* thing.. but i guess some habits are very hard to overcome! so i now see that i need to let it up. i need to be ok with the fact that i am alone. i need to focus back on me.. but i have to tell you, this spotlight has been blinding me!!! lol! it was nice to not interrogate myself for a little while. oh well. i still believe that i need to fully love, appreciate, and  accept me before i can contribute to a healthy relationship. i would like to be financially stable so i don't *need* this other person to live. i also need to love me so that i won't allow him {or any person for that matter!} to step all over me. so i press on.. and hope against hope. {he he another poe quote!! lol!!! i love him sorry!!}  but i also think it's cool that i have given myself the time to flower. i now know that i love poe and poetry and such. i now have some passion back! i have another peace of my puzzle in place. :) any way, i'm running late! so i gotta jet!! love you all!!! hope you have a wonderful day!! i sure will! the sun is finally shining!! yay!!!!!! (((hugs)))~ alysia