hello all  you beautiful people out there! how is everyone?! fantastic i hope! my work day starts at 1 today so i am just kinda chillin til i have to go. i am having a wonderful morning so far. it's so beautiful out today! i love days like this! :D ~&hearts~ so i have been reading some wonderful posts on full figured women and loving yourself totally. what great things everyone has been saying!! i have learned so much so far. great stuff. the only thing that i would like to add to this fabulous discussion would be guilt... i'm not sure where it came from or how early on i had learned this, but i feel guilty if i think i am looking good! like i am self absorbed. i have difficulty saying that i am beautiful.. well saying it, not really thinking it. i can't count how many times i have said "oh she's so full of herself!" or how many times i have heard my mom say it! i don't know, logically speaking of coarse, why it i so bad to think and say you are beautiful! if you say it,  you are not saying that you are better looking than so and so... or even that you are better then them. to me that is wrong. we are all beautiful in our own right. it's like comparing an orange to a banana. totally different! and, some may hate oranges or bananas.. it's in the eye of the beholder right? i think that's why i hate beauty pageants so much! and it's because people feel the need to compare themselves that plastic surgery is so popular right now! you know, i just read an article about demi moore. {i have nothing against her at all, btw, she is one beautiful woman- i think!} anyway! she was talking about how she had gone to some random village and had leeches put on her body to detox her blood. she said it felt great and that she will totally do it again. i read this on yahoo, and they have it so people can comment on it. someone said couldn't she have put that money towards better uses?! like maybe some starving kids or something. and that is such a good point! i mean we are supposedly in a recession right now.. {well thats what my clients say who don't want to pay me a lot anyway! lol!} why is it that the people who have "money" to spend are out getting a boob job or some other procedure!? they could be using that dough for something more productive then trying to look like the barbie dolls they used to play with as a child! so ya.. i feel better about my guilt. i now realize that it's ok to think that i am pretty. that i am not full of my self! i am not staring in my mirror every 5 seconds cause i wanna see how my face looks now! nope i just feel good.. so i that means i look good! :) it's funny, when i dress as my "true" self i get the most looks from the boys. if i try to look like someone i'm not then they don't even notice! i was wearing on of my favorite skirts yesterday. i didn't fully dry my hair, i let it be wavy and fun. and i had a shirt on that i love too. well i went for a loooonnnng walk and the whole time i was on the main street {where there's a lot of cars} i was getting dudes rubber neckin! lol! it was funny! i had some dudes lean into the passenger seat to get a look! lol! i need to hold onto that feeling when i'm all bloated and feeling fat! lol! ~&hearts~ and one more thing that i wanted to post about is my 2 groups that i have up on this site. erin and i have the witch's cozy cottage. it is a fun group! it's for anyone and everyone. we have weekly topics and loads of other fun stuff going on! i've forgotten who i have and have not invited yet so i wanted to put it out there so you all know! here's the address if you wanna check it out: http://thewitchscozycottage.covenspace.com/   i also just started a group for pagans who are either self employed or sell their own goodies, or are interested in doing either. i know it won't be a very active group, but i figure it would be a great place for us all to ask questions and share stories. i was going to go around and invite people who i thought would like it, but i don't wanna assume that some of you don't sell your own stuff.  or wanna learn about it. :) so here's the site for that one: http://selfemployedpagans.covenspace.com

have a wonderful day!! ((((hugs))))) you sexy witches you!  ~&hearts~ alysia